Woots new bodehh here i come

Hahahaha. I swam and did sauna today! I've found a new favourite place to love!! THe Chinese swimming club pool!! there were only 3 ppl today including me!! Loves it.

Kudos to me, ive been exercising everyday this week! Run on Mon and Tues, Swim and sauna on Wed! It's time for some chillout sessions tmw w Theo!! Woots can't wait! :)

CNY dresses here I come! (lol but can't say too early, dinner w theo tmw, co. chalet w bbq buffet on Sat! :x)

horoscope jan27

You may be happy if the pressure in your life is decreasing and that your experiences have taught you as much as they did. You have the opportunity now to integrate your feelings into your social interactions. Trusting others enough to freely share your heart is the greatest gift possible. Don't miss this chance to let someone special past your defensive walls.


Why is today's horoscope so ling!! :D

Love Hurts...Love Hearts.
The difference is one or two letters.

So apt.

boredboredboredboredbored!!!

Yo.

Yes I know I haven't been updating..but the past two weeks, honestly there wasn't much about my life but work, home, and mini meet ups..It's the end of a week again; honestly time seems monotonous and fluid now, passing fast and becoming more and more mundane.. every weekend I literally grasp the roots of my hair and walk around the house going "damnboreddamnboreddamnbored" until my ma really gets it. and then I eat more, sleep more, and eat more again. GAH.

Seeing the recent block shoot pictures didn't help things..I'm glad an awesome girl took my place. But it seems I've been wiped out of their worlds; perhaps I wasn't a strong entity in the first place. sighs. it seems a faraway life time.

That urge to take flight beats so strongly right now, especially after seeing xun's pictures in France, those beautiful, snowy mountains and pretty churchy houses.. I'm missing out on all the snow winter around the world is offering! And then yesterday the Hope for Haiti all-star live on mtv and channels all around the world just really triggered another stirring in my heart. If i didn't have work commitments, I would do something to help. I mean, right now it's just donations of money and blood, but like if I could be there physically, i would.

Although, I know; Singapore's so far away and people here are too apathetic to care about Haiti anyway. Sighs. I know. I just feel very sad for all those poor people there and the crying babies with nothing to eat nor drink. If only Newater sent gallons of those tiny bottles of clean water our people scoff at over to Haiti, this world would be a tiny bit happier somewhere else.

Well despite all my ranting and the inner traveller in me clamoring to get out, I am still excited and of course nervous about my upcoming event. At least vendor requests are coming in (though not pouring in enthusiastically, but good enough i guess), and I'm seeing a more solid picture going to form and materialise (i hope!)! Good luck to meee!

Meanwhile, i think i should get my lazy ass off and figure a way to fit some exercise into my regime. I'm. getting. fat. literally! :( How am i gonna fit into those CNY dresses!! gahh. and I need to fill my schedule with more socialising and maybe, Korean classes? hehe. thinking of that. I'm going to be so shagged when March hits. Planplanplan in advance!

okie dokes. enough ranting. Wish I have pretty pictures to post but currently it's zilch with no camera nor a good bod to show off. haha! bleah hope things look cheerier come CNY! :)

Beanie Baby

This is a really random post, but while I'm uploading phone pics, think this should go up on my blog.. Yesterday at dinner time while the whole family was at the dinner table save my ma and Huifang's ma who were looking after the baby, it fell asleep after having milk and ma was tired of carrying it, so we put it in the huge beanie to sink into its cushy goodness.


And here's how Baby B looked like:

A tiny thing in a huge beanie..we always have a pillow over its tummy to keep it warm and give it weight or smth to sleep.. Anw if u spot his posture..

The beanie apparently is so comfy he has his hands behind his head, relac style! hahaha cuteness.



Anw, as to the previous post, all's fine!! False alarm, theory 4 was right. bah. technology and its side-effects. :P

L where are u?

Sighs. Our song is playing on the radio right now. I'm worried. He hasn't replied my email for 2days now, really unlike him to take so long.. the thing about an LDR is that it is crazy hard to know how the other person is doing if he doesn't get back to you.. It's not like I knew him long enough to know his friends, family or anyone long-lasting enough to be mutual friends.. :(

It's like. I have 5 theories why he isn't replying..
1) Email didn't get thru (highly unlikely, it's gmail.)
2) He doesn't want to reply cos he has no answer to my question/succinct hint/tinge of irritation
3) He's cheating on me and decided to take advantage of the convenience of distance to dump me without any emotional baggage (nah. don't think so.)
4) Internet/phone broke down
5) Something bad has happened to him

And right now it's theory 5 that's bugging me to no end. I was a tinge bit frustrated about the distance (not literally) that has been growing cos of the lack of close communication (meaning msning and webcalls) during the holidays. So I sent him an email. Christmas and New year was really a long period! Plus, I didn't get to spend them with my special someone. (*whines*)

But now i'm feeling a tad regretful and guilty for even showing a hint of neediness, because if anything's happened to him, I don't want my last words to him to be "hey i need more attention" but more along the lines of "hey i'm here for you".

Sighhhhhs. I think I'm getting karma for being so needy in my first relationship, so now I'm being taught a lesson to not be so reliant.

God. I'm going crazy being worried right now. It's funny cos I'm feeling a different kind of tired now, 8months into this new r/s. It's like, being pulled back and forth missing-thinking of him, and then worried-thinking of the entire situation.

I know I know, I'm thinking too much. But what if something really happened to him!!? There is no way i will ever know of it!! sobs. omgomgomg. Okay i know i'm over-reacting and I shld go to sleep now..

gosh. I'm tired.

I don't know if we both each have a destiny, or if we were all just floating around accidentally like on a breeze..

But I think, maybe it's both. Maybe both's happening at the same time.

-Forrest Gump

爱情，就好像在山上找最完美的石头。可是，一个人的手里只能握住一颗石头。如果要找到更完美的石头，就要先把自己手里的那块给扔掉。。。

也可能，好的石头都已经滚到湖底去了 。。

Week 4 of work!

Woots it's been an awesome two days so far! :) Wed was the general meeting with the whole team, and I got to know the people in Luke's team so much better! I guess, it won't be too hard to fit in after all! :)

Went thru all the assigned jobs everyone was supposed to finish and revenue forecast for the year 2010, and I realise that they all have damn alot of events in store for a whole year! Some big clients, some small stuff. Cool.

THen the highlight was the after-lunch actually. When the whole team went out to Brewerks (walau i have never had beer for lunch lor) and got jugs of beer and lotsa food! Was truly stuffed. They then ordered another two extra jugs of beer (I think cos Boss was paying) and then we were all so stuffed we had to play some game to finish it. So. it was "I have never", and BOY. all the dirty secrets came pouring out..I mean. Didnt' know u had to be so honest at beergames, but anyway. OMG really. I. Didn't. Know. LOL. tsk, the difference between the school people and the work people. Now, this is the real twang!

We had such a guffaw over many things and it was pretty entertaining seeing who did what and who's never. well anyway. Went back to the office red-faced, and settled some stuff before the team headed out for a "Conference" again, to... Crystabelle at Chinatown! Had some fun K-ing and knowing them a lil' more..Really glad that most of the team are pretty young, so i mean, they all know each other pretty well already, but I guess time will solve things. Just hope that I'm not too jia kantang.

Anyway, Yesterday was awesomer!! Met up with random girls, Yilin, Jo and Crystal, and we headed out to this really Uluated place "Sunset Grill" at Seletar Camp, and had such an adventure finding the place!! Haha wonderful GPS and bad direction-sense! We went round and round and almost drove into a ditch! haha but we found the pretty place in the end, and had such Hotass Buffalo wings at Level 5! Darn it was really like chilli-padi hot!! Gahh!

The other dishes were fab tho! Yummy white-wine mussels and fried mushrooms and yummy Clam chowder!! Super stuffed. Of course. The best part was the catching up! :)

Jo, got me psyched up all over again about WAT and America; which, of course I've been trying to forget and cool down after the Summer hiatus, and it was so interesting hearing about everybody's BF statuses and all the inside stories!!

OMG awesome we really have to do such randomness again! The best thing with old friends you've shared a past with is that it's always easy to hook back up again and there's always no awkwardness nor difficulty finding topics!! In fact there was too little time to finish talking actually. We realise we haven't seen each other for like, 5 years? SOooo much to catch up on!

And we wanted to revisit Cedar again during lunch break (for me n yilin) today! Cos it's like Jo's last day before school starts. Ohwell didnt' work out, but good also la, I have an event today to attend.

Yayy so happy. okay things are all going well in life except for the BF who is no where to be found (online of course). I know he's started work and all that, and well, I've started work and all that, so I can't really cater to the horrible timing esp with daylight saving time and all that, but we've been emailing? :( I don't like. not the same, not the same at all!

Okay nvm i'm not supp to be blogging at work! LOL. Bye!

Kudos to me I'm blogging so much! :)

Just got back from sending Xun off at the airport..lucky girl, get to go to Paris for one whole semester!! It is definitely going to be such an adventure! Reminds me of good times in America..

Was real happy to hang around the Cblkies for abit, I miss them so much, and the whole of hall life..but it seems a tad distant no matter how, since i've physically moved away and am so detached from hall and its activities; And that's also the way hall is, the hustle and bustle moves on as quickly as it always does, with or without you.. :'(

Earlier on after a eye-popping day at work (stared at my lappie the whole darn day), headed home in a busful of foreign workers again, squashed, and sadly without my ipod, which died. :( It really makes a whole lot of difference travelling without my music. Makes the trip feel unbearably even longer.

Well, as usual my thoughts drifted to L and the good times, and how I feel about him and what might be, or not. Y'know distance really makes the heart grow fonder, and then maybe that fondness becomes over-imagination and in worse cases delusion. I really hope not.

sighs. I really wonder if this is a mess I'm getting my heart into. I mean. On the outside it doesn't really have a huge impact in my life...dealing with hall life, check. moving home, check. new life at work, check. single status in singapore, still check. Or so it appears to be.

Meanwhile inside, that muscle in the left ribcage still throbs silently, wondering if its strings were tugged for a reason, and starting to reconsider that cynicsm towards love or anything even close to it.

Gawd why am I being poetic. Anyway I concluded that perhaps I was just thinking too much being in a busful of people yet feeling so damn alone. I still stick to that theory that things happen for a reason, and maybe it aint' time to think so much yet. Not like I'm being chased by anyone anyway right? Dammit girl have more confidence in your charm. lol.

Alright enough ranting for the night! Toodles.

Yaaaarghh. Bored at work!! I sent out hundreds of emails to my vendors, and am really sad that 50% or so bounced back!! :'( Sobs. Cannot lidat man. If it keeps going on i'm gonna so not be able to get enough people on time!! :(

Packing to the new year!

So, the New weekend of the year I mean the weekend of the New Year 2010 :), was spent cleaning up and packing the room at home! Yayness! Finally. me n sis got down to sucking up all the dust in the godforsaken corners and practically everywhere actually. Cos actually we haven't been living in here for real the past 3 years? Hall, hall...takes your soul away from home.. Lol.

Well yes, so we cleared loads of stuff--threw away loads and had loads to give away and recycle, and yet there is still so much to do! I still dread to unpack those bags of things I brought back from hall (yes,yes they are still untouched *hand wipes brow*)..sighs!

Anyway. there were things from SACPrimary school (yes omg right), Cedar (oh lovely girlhood days), VJC and my old love life, and now, NUS..gahhH! really tons to look thru and sort! I realise from the last time we moved out of our 20-year old Bishan house til now, things have built up into a mountain and well basically our maid moved it over for us so I still didnt' know where things were...until now. It really is unbelievable a teenager can store up so much trash (okay not really, they are my treasured notes and exchanged gifts from friends okay!). :P

Read thru tons of stuff and packed them according to stacks of memories..learnt alil' bit more and remembered a bit more about my old self..so glad to be where I am. Things have all settled down, I've found my place making and keeping old friends (learning to appreciate the gold and silver ones and not feeling lost or counting the petty stuff), still learning about relationships and well. I really wonder why I haven't been attached again much earlier..lol.

okay honestly I guess I was pretty caught up on all the school stuff, which is a good thing too I guess. But anyway was reading thru the old cards I got and the pre-letter drafts to the ex, and i realise how that relationship was built on twigs. It was just waiting to snap and I refused to see it? Must be the first-time syndrome. -_-

And I realised how much I've matured from then (or so I hope), and have learnt my lesson to never rely on someone else for happiness. That's just creating bubble of hope that would eventually burst. Sighs. so much for being a dreamer, huh? I guess life's just rubbed that pixie dust off my eyes. I hate that.

Sighs. okay moving on to happy stuff, now there's LOADS of space to shift in the new junk! bwahaha. bleahs. don't know if that is a good thing or bad. well. at least now I know where my things are and can always add the right things to the right pile! hahaha gawd I prolly was born a groundhog my past life.

Alrights! Back to packin'! :)

(Update)Results: My bedside, from this:

To this!!:

hahaa okay nvm doesn't look like much of a diff from here but there truly was lotsa dust and junk! :))

Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you, dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

'Til I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia

Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because

When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone..

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach

Back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear

Oh, Darling I wish you were here

2009-2010!!

The transition to the year 2010 was fun fun FUNN!!! I'm really glad I had such awesome company, and didn't have a boring one that I guess I had last year? I can't remember top off the mind now. But anyway. tons of pictures will be up of just now I am very sure. :)

Gosh I am really dead beat and it's 4.30am now but I have to write this. Now now, we cannot start the year, no, decade (!!), with laziness, can we? :D Which was also why today at work I left late (it was half day though) and almost had a heart attack finishing all my work cos I really wanted it done TODAY..

It's really fast. 2009 has really been a year of closures for me. Once, with Command with my FYFs0809; the best Command I could ever ask for..and then after having a beautiful summer in the USA; a reluctant departure with a growing love for the country and a newfound love..and then 6months later a quiet, heart-wrenching tug away from hall alone on Boxing day, just me and my favourite place of these 3 years or so, and moving home..a start of a whole new chapter of re-nesting and habit-recreating.

So much has happened and despite everyone putting up pictures and reminiscing the past year or decade, I refuse to do that right now. Actually really, cos i'm really damn shagged. haha.

Back to the countdown to 2010!! Met the CG gang and Charlynn at Timbre mobile @ ECP.. My first time..It's so pretty there! I love the enviro-friendly ambience, with the ever-entertaining GoodFellas. Good food, drinks, music and company, what more is there to ask for? :D

It was a pretty darn good time we were having, me, very much charmed by the voices of the GoodFellas and the infectious fun they looked like they were having onstage, and we played some cards too, which was quite funny.. had some drinks (2 Kamikaze shots, 1 Pina Colada and half a Heineken), and had tons of pictures taken all the way til we left and hit the beach!!

It was awesome, minutes before countdown the staff handed out party stuff, and we started spraying partystring and blowing those party things..and then the clock struck midnight and the ships blared their horns twice or thrice? and shot out those emergency red lights into the sky like fire works!

Plus, guess what's special tonight? It's a blue moon night!! Can u believe how cool it is? The night was brightly lit by a full moon..the second one this month! Hence the name blue moon.

So cool right!! What a perfect start to the new year!

We hit the beach and played with sparklers..the standard sparkler air-drawings ensued, and tons of pictures taken! Some are damn nice! Like the one that says (marry me) and Charlynn's and my huge heart!! Oh well will post when pics are uP!

Me n Char's Perfect heart!! :) For u, L!

Conjoined angels!

jul's the horny devil!!

Look at all our pretty shapes..n jul's third finger..loL!

Adrian should get the hint now..haha
, L!

okok anw the beach part was okay apart from being disgusted from the noisy bangla bunches everywhere on the beach (i deduced that it was actually quite sad for them cos they have to spend NY's overseas and with other guy workers..it's practically NS overseas!) and moving on to campgrounds--well u can almost call it that cos everyone got their tents up on every possible space (super sad! Our beach looked like a renovation site with ppl camping on them!! :( )..

Let's just say I wouldn't show any foreign friends ECP during seasons like this?? Arghh damn sad, the lack of land and natural resources..

Still, we have lots to thank for, and anyway I still had a wonderful night!! Pics will be up soon!

Okay technically i fell asleep and finished the last two phrases on NY's day, 1/1/10!! hahaha

HAPPYY 2010 my Lovelies!!