In this world, there is no place I'd rather be..

I was right. C.ommand. W.ill be A.wesome T.onight, as promised by the C.W.A.T team, was indeed awesome, tho less teary than the past few. Maybe because it was my own. I am more than satisfied at how it turned out, and it's the perfect closure.

Thanks C.W.A.T for everything, the C-onfession session and the C-ommand part.. it was more than I could ask for. :))

Time to sleep! We ended officially at 530am, and then left ard 7am, went to have bfast at Engine Macs and just got back and showered. Cblock really trumps all blocks. :)) Updates again soon!

Emo entry

Today, after my thai quiz, came the quiet acknowledgement of freedom..the past consecutive weeks of non-stop flurrying, stressing about several projects and presentations at the same time, has finally come to an end! It was really the busiest I've experienced in my 3 yrs man. Esp w command practices. However, quiet, because it also marks the almost-end of my semester, and I'm not excited because it means I'm just left with one more, which is going to be different anw because things would've changed with the FYFs gone..

Tonight, will be the most apt closure, for it's Cblk C-ommand! I haven't really been looking forward to it's arrival, though I can say I am pretty excited about its contents.. I'm just not anticipating the emo part; I don't even know what to say in my speech! I remember about a coupla months ago I was thinking of this night, my mind full of things I wanted to say..I was on the bus, and then David tan's "til the end" came on, and I cried all the way from KR to Far east.

Siao. that was damn emo. I think the night before I played poker and enjoyed it a bit too much, and was just thinking on that ride that I'll really miss all these moments; the guys' cute antics; all my special times here; times that will never repeat once I step out of Kr's glass doors. Arrgh emo. I think the FYFs have started to learn how to mentally let go, but because I'm still in the middle of leaving and staying, I am so lost!

I wonder how Alvin Ng coped. I wonder what I'll say tonight. I wonder if.. ....Actually. I know it's gonna be a great C-ommand, and there's this overwhelming pride because I knwo the rest of the blocks have just finished theirs, and no matter how, none of them will beat the experience the Cblockers will get tonight.

Sighs. I probably did something good my last life to deserve Cblock. :S

Bus blog!

Alright, on the bus now, on the way home. Sadly, this is the only time I really have to blog. Stuck in a bus full of people, with this guy almost dozing onto my shoulder...eeks! And I almost couldn’t get a seat! Had to rush the half of my report on the bus before I hit home. Can’t believe I’m this busy. Lots to say about Command! Pics and vids have all been uploaded on FB and I’m guilty of spending most of these nights watching them over and over again, feeling the waves of satisfaction everytime the crowd cheered and awwed.

I HAVE POST-COMMAND BLUES!! Miss the late night practices and the times spent with all the fyfs..I am really proud to say I have at least played in a rock band in my entire life! And danced too. In front of an audience!! Surprisingly, before I stepped up to perform, I felt no ounce of trepidation or panic. AMAZING. Haha. I think a few of the finale peeps were shivering in their knees juz before we went up! I usually feel like puking. I think I was just high on adrenaline?

Anyway, it was a mind-blowing success! Really really felt so proud and happy we did it! Like what Lester said, “this easily trumps anything else I’ve done in hall” Yeahhhh!!~ Apart from maybe parts of FWOC and blueblood? Thanks to all the FYFs who've made it wonderful, and Blackie, for being such a great i/c, I've truly learnt much from u, and had lots of fun along e way! :)

And truly, I think the ppl who’ve Commanded would agree that Command really brings people together. I’ve come to know how awesome some hall peeps really are, like Nick n Juan, Andi Kurnia, Alvan, Wilson kam, and really really nice people like meisi, yunhui, pearline..People I would otherwise not have ever spoken to in my entire life!

I think our batch of FYFs did a great job, and at the same time got pretty close, for acquaintances, at least. It’s like, at least we’ve done something awesome together, you know? That kind of feeling where we will always look back on and know that we’ve been a part of something we created together. Even if after this we all go separate ways and prolly only see some others only once more in our entire life, or even not at all..

I cried when we did our family song..totally didn’t expect it seconds before when we were behind the curtain..cos we just did a fantastic finale, so where got mood to cry? But somehow, I burst into tears when we merged into the crowd, after I saw Baby and Joycie and Cass and the 6thfloorers.. :S And I think I’m damn embarrassed especially at one pt of time, when I saw Big Lionel, I actually meant to laugh and say “ I can’t believe it’s my turn now!” and went to hug him but somehow I ended up sobbing it out on his shoulder.. That was embarrassing. I think some ppl saw. :S haha

I think Cblk command will be more emotional man. I really can’t imagine. Sighs. People come and go. I've just got to learn to let go right now. KR's really been more than just home away from home..it was my own haven of privacy and solace; a special place that gave me new talents and knowledge, and most of all, new people i've come to love..

I asked Blackie if she'd come back often, and she said prolly not that much, because things would have changed; it'd just be different. I think so too! I'm feeling a little part of me move on with the FYFs, even tho i'm staying next sem..yet I am so unwilling to leave this part of my life behind..

*sighs* Parting is such bittersweet sorrow.

UPDates soon i promise!

I've a billion and one things to blog about right now, my heart's gushing with all the things I wanna share. But I can't!! Cos I have two hours to finish my reports and head home for bro's send-off dinner--he's gg to Tekong on Monday!! My beloved baby bro. Sighs. Time flies.

Will update after this week, when it is true liberation!! BWHAHAHA ppl w exams..sucks to be u.. nyahnyah.. :P

Teehee. P.s forgive my anal evilness. Sucks to be me now. :S