Bus blog!

Alright, on the bus now, on the way home. Sadly, this is the only time I really have to blog. Stuck in a bus full of people, with this guy almost dozing onto my shoulder...eeks! And I almost couldn’t get a seat! Had to rush the half of my report on the bus before I hit home. Can’t believe I’m this busy. Lots to say about Command! Pics and vids have all been uploaded on FB and I’m guilty of spending most of these nights watching them over and over again, feeling the waves of satisfaction everytime the crowd cheered and awwed.

I HAVE POST-COMMAND BLUES!! Miss the late night practices and the times spent with all the fyfs..I am really proud to say I have at least played in a rock band in my entire life! And danced too. In front of an audience!! Surprisingly, before I stepped up to perform, I felt no ounce of trepidation or panic. AMAZING. Haha. I think a few of the finale peeps were shivering in their knees juz before we went up! I usually feel like puking. I think I was just high on adrenaline?

Anyway, it was a mind-blowing success! Really really felt so proud and happy we did it! Like what Lester said, “this easily trumps anything else I’ve done in hall” Yeahhhh!!~ Apart from maybe parts of FWOC and blueblood? Thanks to all the FYFs who've made it wonderful, and Blackie, for being such a great i/c, I've truly learnt much from u, and had lots of fun along e way! :)

And truly, I think the ppl who’ve Commanded would agree that Command really brings people together. I’ve come to know how awesome some hall peeps really are, like Nick n Juan, Andi Kurnia, Alvan, Wilson kam, and really really nice people like meisi, yunhui, pearline..People I would otherwise not have ever spoken to in my entire life!

I think our batch of FYFs did a great job, and at the same time got pretty close, for acquaintances, at least. It’s like, at least we’ve done something awesome together, you know? That kind of feeling where we will always look back on and know that we’ve been a part of something we created together. Even if after this we all go separate ways and prolly only see some others only once more in our entire life, or even not at all..

I cried when we did our family song..totally didn’t expect it seconds before when we were behind the curtain..cos we just did a fantastic finale, so where got mood to cry? But somehow, I burst into tears when we merged into the crowd, after I saw Baby and Joycie and Cass and the 6thfloorers.. :S And I think I’m damn embarrassed especially at one pt of time, when I saw Big Lionel, I actually meant to laugh and say “ I can’t believe it’s my turn now!” and went to hug him but somehow I ended up sobbing it out on his shoulder.. That was embarrassing. I think some ppl saw. :S haha

I think Cblk command will be more emotional man. I really can’t imagine. Sighs. People come and go. I've just got to learn to let go right now. KR's really been more than just home away from home..it was my own haven of privacy and solace; a special place that gave me new talents and knowledge, and most of all, new people i've come to love..

I asked Blackie if she'd come back often, and she said prolly not that much, because things would have changed; it'd just be different. I think so too! I'm feeling a little part of me move on with the FYFs, even tho i'm staying next sem..yet I am so unwilling to leave this part of my life behind..

*sighs* Parting is such bittersweet sorrow.