Cool picture glass!~

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lol was so happy to find this while blogsurfing..it's damn cool! ok testing testing.. there're other kinds of pictrailers too. whee! anyway, was surfing ard and read sis's neighbour, hailin's blog..right now she's in canada on sep..gosh. she's having the time of her life and i really hope i'll in be like her next next sem, or the next next next sem..Theo got her helsinki sep place already! lucky lucky her.. Meanwhile i guess i shld juz mug hard and get my A's first..thinking of earning some bucks too at e same time though, cos i heard dad isn't doing well. sighs. Hoping for the best! i hope dad just gives me 5 years. 5 years to do what i want in uni and then i'll help out at e co. *shakes head* 5 years and he'd be sixty..i hope mah baby n i work something out for the long run too..though i think he plans only for himself..gee. meaning i have to start planning for myself too before i hit my BIG Two's.. so, so fast.

Btw i watched The devil wears prada last night with ter in my room..I sooo wanna work in somewhere like Runway fashion or somewhere challenging and on-the-go! New york's like wuperduper cool..they say you've gotta work in New York at least once in your life. I really hope i do! Actually anywhere with the seasons would do for me..S'pore's a really boring fashion place! can't wear those pretty coats and scarves..and everyone's kinda fashion-apathetic. butbut. good at times too cos sometimes i'm juz too lazy to dress. haha!

feeling sticky and dirty after chingay prac now..and i shld start on my econs tutorial soon!! (X_X)

yoga-lover, fresh-faced me

woo! hot yoga rocks my socks! went down today to TRUE YOGA for my second complimentary session..chose to do hot yoga this time, and truly, it was exhilarating! haha..okay for my body and soul, at least. I am sooo tempted to sign up for the one-year plan!! except that it is one year's worth of any of the activities and i have to make sure nothing stops me from attending lesson every week..hmm. which is like actually possible.. once a week shld be manageable..but then again. school hasn't FULLY started, so i don't really know if i should risk it and sign up.. oh well. i'll see how things go..$88 bucks per month is no joke..plus..if i continue staying in hall... sighs. expenses, expenses.. anyhoo..i got talent scouted!! hahahaaha food for my ego.. went down after yoga to the office at taka, and the thing is, i am entitled to sign up for five FREE courses teaching makeup, catwalk, posing, etc etc..how cool is that? it kinda is the one that my cuz emmie went for..the catch is. OF course money is involved. i gotta buy $500 worth of beverly hills makeup..which is like. oh no. cos i already have newly-bought make up!!!! though yes, it is no where near beverlyhills standard (think Thailand cheap makeup) haha but it is sufficient for a makeup-for-clubbing-and-formal-dinners-only girl like me.. hm..thinking if i shld join..must reply by this sat!! hope dad n mom allow though..ma just said she thinks 500quid is not worth for the make up..and says the whole thing is a scam the makeup company set up to sell their pdts. bleahs. okok..gotta stop right now..was in e middle of cheering for KR's badminton match..exciting!! woohoo!! ok gg back downstairs to cheeer..go KR!! (:

xxxpls look after my fragile heart!!xxx

I asked him if he loved me yesterday. He laughed and said, "Just a little bit"..pointing with his thumb and second finger..and i was horrified and i said, "HUH! so little!!"..he laughed again and said "ok, abit more..and his thumb inched lower.."I like u this much, then i like v6 this much ok?" with his thumb halfing the length of his finger..haha..ok at least he said he has more love for me than the guys..but then again. why would e guys need love?(X_X) why do i feel so disatisfied? shouldn't love not be this greedy? but i guess every girl wants her boy to love her unconditionally ain't it? ultimately every girl just wants to be loved. we quarrelled at swensons before that..no. not really quarrel..honestly he told me of his plans and i just felt so sad, the sadness turned to anger.. it's so unnerving; the fact that he still doesn't understand me til now..stupid boy. stop blaming it on your character! it is just another excuse to lean on. and then u forget about it and then nothing changes..urh! sometimes i think he deserves a whack on the head for being so thick..or maybe guys are ALL this thick in the head.. He told me he'd be leaving with his dad on a round-the-world trip..and then his parents would be shifting back and he wouldn't have much time for me anymore.. how nice. and so.i guess i'm supposed to smile and be happy for him? i mean. okay..so tell me about your plans and make it sound as if i don't play a part in any of it. yeah so what if that's true? it hurts all the more BECAUSE it is true. he just dont get it seriously..and then i got angry and didn't speak. AND he got angry and gave me attitude. wth seriously! whose fault is it? right. sighs. so since it turned out that way..i gave in since i didn't want to be angry anymore..what's the point when I'M supp to be mad and he's SUPP to make it feel all right again but then he gets mad instead? argh. ok so someone has to make it right.right? i'm glad i didn't let anger make me walk away..stupid cow. i almost did. good thing it turned out that way though. he knows i care. i hope i didn't just fall in love with him all over again.

I'm SCARIER than exams.

haha..theo dropped by today, and i felt really much better from all that studying with her company. though i admit i did only one chapter of work today. i am so gonna sleep past 3am again tonite! :( yup but it felt gd to reconnect w an old friend again, and we laughed alot, esp when i brought her over to sis's room.. she's good man, that gal, so unstressed as compared to me! learnt much from her attitude..she's only half done studying but she's confident she'd reach her A's..haha! i shld start unwringing myself too! and prob psycho myself into thinking like her..i'm gg to reach my As man. the bell curve might work in my favour. aah. 9days to go..


if you're scared, be scarier than what's scaring you! -thumper-

tEar me from my books..

Just read a few people's blogs, and here i am, writing again..haha, maybe it's just anything to get me away from work man! ANYTHING. well, feeling pretty nostalgic now..read bao's, and daph's and bernice's and norman's and daryl's n yc's..oh man. haa..yea i WAS trying to escape studying..anwway.. how my friends have progressed and moved on in their lives.. it's really amazing to know that somehow, we're all like in the same kinda situation--but in all the three diff uni's here..miss hanging out w my friends as a class..uni's no more class-like but more individualistic instead..not that i really hate it, but i do prefer a class situation cos in uni it really IS hard to make a whole bunch of really gd friends..it just changes every semester! will really really miss Maui gals and Jieling, Gaston n e rest..

today..whoa. i really didn't do much work man!! compared to e past few days..juz slept n slept..lols i think i'm really burntout. i don't think i've ever studied so much consecutively! like, had 24hr studying periods..12pm to 6am man! ok, not really 24hr. but then it's like another few hrs of sleep, then study all over again.. this is wad u get when u're not consistent! haha! i SO totally won't do this next sem again man! now that i noe wad to expect... killer lar this week. cannot cannot. TUrning reclusive already lar. i've shut myself up for too long. I CAN'T WAIT FOR EXAMS TO BE OVER!! it's one more week man. gal yoo can do it. and then.. it'd be e commmsioning parade n ball! whee!~~ and xmas!! and thailand shopping w e guys.. wahoo..hahaa..okok. back to work.....

Life & it's potholes

Yesterday the raintrees outside my flat bloomed luscious yellow buds..it was such a pretty sight! each entire tree was covered in pretty yellow bloomers..and they practically looked like two torches lining the road...

TOday the flowers were gone. Overnight the trees shed and the beauty was gone..How things change..it just struck a chord in me, u noe. when i saw the next day that the trees were plain and green again, as if they'd never bloomed.. e. just like my r/s..

things just changed and it's like such an uncomprehensible feeling..how i'd like to salvage it but it's something i can't change..we talked that night..and..i guess we reached a mutual understanding that the feeling's gone? i don't know. the r/s will continue..the effort will still be put in. but. (gawd. my MP3's playing zhi dao ni bu shi zhen de ai wo! how ironic huh.) i guess..things happen this way when a r/s sours..i'm glad we aren't at each other's throats or something..well i know i still like him..we just probably need something more.. it's hard to let go right now though..OMG.( The Hardest thing by 98 deg is on now..i love my ipod man.) sighx. It really IS the hardest thing.

live life n love life despite it's potholes~

blogthings

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

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Blessings

" i think people tire themselves too much by thinking of what they are not getting. "

Was randomly reading Crystal's blog, and this sentence struck me so much.. To think the solace i was unknowingly searching for was found in reproaching myself.. yes. i MUST count my blessings again tonite.. i was thinking too much for myself when i suggested the breakup no? maybe i AM tiring myself out thinking about what i'm not getting..focus on the bigger picture girl! check out the things i DO have..
argh. impulsiveness! i need the strength to pass the weekend..and the strength to tolerate that annoying class of mine..

Random frustrations

Had another long weekend, with labour day on Mon...didin't get to spend any time with him though..was utterly disappointed. Dunno why i let myself get so depressed.. MAYBE IT'S THE 7DAY FIELD CAMP HE'S JUST HAD--MEANING I DIDN'T GET TO TALK TO HIM THE ENTIRE PAST WEEK....I hate OCS! some people get so ruthless sometimes..have i wasted my energies thinking of him? WHere's the "somewhere out there, someone's thinking of me" thingy gone to? he didn't even call the entire weekend after the one after he just came out.. damn. hate it when his mom comes back and the word "mother" means i can forget about going out with him.. i can't let out my pent up frustrations to him too...how to find the heart to complain when he's in-camp?? argh. it's so..frustrating! i think one day i'll just burst out in an " I can't take it anymore i just wanna break up" and then he'll just accept it without argument and that'll be e end of story. and i'll get to keep my pent up frustrations. *SCrEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAMM* (alrights. random frustrations..the above discredits him lah.)

how do the girls w NS bfs stay sane? i mean, i'm fine the entire week until the weekends, expecting at least a date from him..but when i ultimately get rejected i'm left w an entire day free cos 1-i would have pushed all my dates away in the hope of a date 2-i wouldn't have a slot at ben n jerry's 3-all my friends would be at church or w their bfs.. and it's so annoying!
ee. i don wanna feel apprehensive on weekends..it becomes so routine...hope, excitement, expectation, and then a hellway dip in spirits once i get rejected...then i steel myself for a brand new week ahead.. stupid. i don't care already..i'll just plan my own stuff on weekdays.. butbut. will i? urgh.

recently just caught up w xingqi..omgomg..she's gg to Melbourne U!! i am so happy for her! studying horticulture..haha..i can so imagine the xingqi in 5yrs down the road! happily planting her plants and reciting the scientific names off her memory..think it'll be so fun la the next four yrs..kinda envious really..contacted nadene and asked abit for xq.. seems like melb is a great place to be in, and the racial prej shouldn't be too bad, not like the rumours i've heard..and there'll be four seasons too!! i wanna go to Melb too!! frankly if i was in her place i wouldn't hesitate too much to leave..now waiting for the local replies, i kinda get a tad put off.. it'll be another four yrs in s'pore..but i hope i'll get to do exchange programs! hopefully uni life won't be as drab as Ge's... and.. i can't wait to go visit bern at London and Xq at aussie on my vacations!! that'll be so so fun.. yeah. wonder what the rest'll be doing? havent' caught up w many S41-ers recently..though i saw justin.. aha! was super happy to see him that day...usual cheeky self..and his hair has grown! field camp for him this week..lols.

omg. my colleagues are complaining abt e price of canteen food! whaahah.. i second the fact that sch teachers are abit ngiao. *grins*

thank god for save draft!

wahahahahah..whew. found it back..oh man my entries are like becoming so msn-ish..

yesterday theo n sis n xumao n binye got their NUS replies! biz..oh and i didn't get...*heart sinks* felt terrible, until binye told me NUS would send several rounds of replies..hope so hope so! it's like e ultimate decision already..once i get it it'll be my confirmed choice...i think. unless i suddenly change my mind..
mao's in field camp now for four days already..been praying each day rains less..just for this week..hm. it poured last nite.