Had another long weekend, with labour day on Mon...didin't get to spend any time with him though..was utterly disappointed. Dunno why i let myself get so depressed.. MAYBE IT'S THE 7DAY FIELD CAMP HE'S JUST HAD--MEANING I DIDN'T GET TO TALK TO HIM THE ENTIRE PAST WEEK....I hate OCS! some people get so ruthless sometimes..have i wasted my energies thinking of him? WHere's the "somewhere out there, someone's thinking of me" thingy gone to? he didn't even call the entire weekend after the one after he just came out.. damn. hate it when his mom comes back and the word "mother" means i can forget about going out with him.. i can't let out my pent up frustrations to him too...how to find the heart to complain when he's in-camp?? argh. it's so..frustrating! i think one day i'll just burst out in an " I can't take it anymore i just wanna break up" and then he'll just accept it without argument and that'll be e end of story. and i'll get to keep my pent up frustrations. *SCrEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAMM* (alrights. random frustrations..the above discredits him lah.)
how do the girls w NS bfs stay sane? i mean, i'm fine the entire week until the weekends, expecting at least a date from him..but when i ultimately get rejected i'm left w an entire day free cos 1-i would have pushed all my dates away in the hope of a date 2-i wouldn't have a slot at ben n jerry's 3-all my friends would be at church or w their bfs.. and it's so annoying!
ee. i don wanna feel apprehensive on weekends..it becomes so routine...hope, excitement, expectation, and then a hellway dip in spirits once i get rejected...then i steel myself for a brand new week ahead.. stupid. i don't care already..i'll just plan my own stuff on weekdays.. butbut. will i? urgh.
recently just caught up w xingqi..omgomg..she's gg to Melbourne U!! i am so happy for her! studying horticulture..haha..i can so imagine the xingqi in 5yrs down the road! happily planting her plants and reciting the scientific names off her memory..think it'll be so fun la the next four yrs..kinda envious really..contacted nadene and asked abit for xq.. seems like melb is a great place to be in, and the racial prej shouldn't be too bad, not like the rumours i've heard..and there'll be four seasons too!! i wanna go to Melb too!! frankly if i was in her place i wouldn't hesitate too much to leave..now waiting for the local replies, i kinda get a tad put off.. it'll be another four yrs in s'pore..but i hope i'll get to do exchange programs! hopefully uni life won't be as drab as Ge's... and.. i can't wait to go visit bern at London and Xq at aussie on my vacations!! that'll be so so fun.. yeah. wonder what the rest'll be doing? havent' caught up w many S41-ers recently..though i saw justin.. aha! was super happy to see him that day...usual cheeky self..and his hair has grown! field camp for him this week..lols.
omg. my colleagues are complaining abt e price of canteen food! whaahah.. i second the fact that sch teachers are abit ngiao. *grins*
how do the girls w NS bfs stay sane? i mean, i'm fine the entire week until the weekends, expecting at least a date from him..but when i ultimately get rejected i'm left w an entire day free cos 1-i would have pushed all my dates away in the hope of a date 2-i wouldn't have a slot at ben n jerry's 3-all my friends would be at church or w their bfs.. and it's so annoying!
ee. i don wanna feel apprehensive on weekends..it becomes so routine...hope, excitement, expectation, and then a hellway dip in spirits once i get rejected...then i steel myself for a brand new week ahead.. stupid. i don't care already..i'll just plan my own stuff on weekdays.. butbut. will i? urgh.
recently just caught up w xingqi..omgomg..she's gg to Melbourne U!! i am so happy for her! studying horticulture..haha..i can so imagine the xingqi in 5yrs down the road! happily planting her plants and reciting the scientific names off her memory..think it'll be so fun la the next four yrs..kinda envious really..contacted nadene and asked abit for xq.. seems like melb is a great place to be in, and the racial prej shouldn't be too bad, not like the rumours i've heard..and there'll be four seasons too!! i wanna go to Melb too!! frankly if i was in her place i wouldn't hesitate too much to leave..now waiting for the local replies, i kinda get a tad put off.. it'll be another four yrs in s'pore..but i hope i'll get to do exchange programs! hopefully uni life won't be as drab as Ge's... and.. i can't wait to go visit bern at London and Xq at aussie on my vacations!! that'll be so so fun.. yeah. wonder what the rest'll be doing? havent' caught up w many S41-ers recently..though i saw justin.. aha! was super happy to see him that day...usual cheeky self..and his hair has grown! field camp for him this week..lols.
omg. my colleagues are complaining abt e price of canteen food! whaahah.. i second the fact that sch teachers are abit ngiao. *grins*
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