xxxpls look after my fragile heart!!xxx

I asked him if he loved me yesterday. He laughed and said, "Just a little bit"..pointing with his thumb and second finger..and i was horrified and i said, "HUH! so little!!"..he laughed again and said "ok, abit more..and his thumb inched lower.."I like u this much, then i like v6 this much ok?" with his thumb halfing the length of his finger..haha..ok at least he said he has more love for me than the guys..but then again. why would e guys need love?(X_X) why do i feel so disatisfied? shouldn't love not be this greedy? but i guess every girl wants her boy to love her unconditionally ain't it? ultimately every girl just wants to be loved. we quarrelled at swensons before that..no. not really quarrel..honestly he told me of his plans and i just felt so sad, the sadness turned to anger.. it's so unnerving; the fact that he still doesn't understand me til now..stupid boy. stop blaming it on your character! it is just another excuse to lean on. and then u forget about it and then nothing changes..urh! sometimes i think he deserves a whack on the head for being so thick..or maybe guys are ALL this thick in the head.. He told me he'd be leaving with his dad on a round-the-world trip..and then his parents would be shifting back and he wouldn't have much time for me anymore.. how nice. and so.i guess i'm supposed to smile and be happy for him? i mean. okay..so tell me about your plans and make it sound as if i don't play a part in any of it. yeah so what if that's true? it hurts all the more BECAUSE it is true. he just dont get it seriously..and then i got angry and didn't speak. AND he got angry and gave me attitude. wth seriously! whose fault is it? right. sighs. so since it turned out that way..i gave in since i didn't want to be angry anymore..what's the point when I'M supp to be mad and he's SUPP to make it feel all right again but then he gets mad instead? argh. ok so someone has to make it right.right? i'm glad i didn't let anger make me walk away..stupid cow. i almost did. good thing it turned out that way though. he knows i care. i hope i didn't just fall in love with him all over again.