Yaaaarghh. Bored at work!! I sent out hundreds of emails to my vendors, and am really sad that 50% or so bounced back!! :'( Sobs. Cannot lidat man. If it keeps going on i'm gonna so not be able to get enough people on time!! :(

Packing to the new year!

So, the New weekend of the year I mean the weekend of the New Year 2010 :), was spent cleaning up and packing the room at home! Yayness! Finally. me n sis got down to sucking up all the dust in the godforsaken corners and practically everywhere actually. Cos actually we haven't been living in here for real the past 3 years? Hall, hall...takes your soul away from home.. Lol.

Well yes, so we cleared loads of stuff--threw away loads and had loads to give away and recycle, and yet there is still so much to do! I still dread to unpack those bags of things I brought back from hall (yes,yes they are still untouched *hand wipes brow*)..sighs!

Anyway. there were things from SACPrimary school (yes omg right), Cedar (oh lovely girlhood days), VJC and my old love life, and now, NUS..gahhH! really tons to look thru and sort! I realise from the last time we moved out of our 20-year old Bishan house til now, things have built up into a mountain and well basically our maid moved it over for us so I still didnt' know where things were...until now. It really is unbelievable a teenager can store up so much trash (okay not really, they are my treasured notes and exchanged gifts from friends okay!). :P

Read thru tons of stuff and packed them according to stacks of memories..learnt alil' bit more and remembered a bit more about my old self..so glad to be where I am. Things have all settled down, I've found my place making and keeping old friends (learning to appreciate the gold and silver ones and not feeling lost or counting the petty stuff), still learning about relationships and well. I really wonder why I haven't been attached again much earlier..lol.

okay honestly I guess I was pretty caught up on all the school stuff, which is a good thing too I guess. But anyway was reading thru the old cards I got and the pre-letter drafts to the ex, and i realise how that relationship was built on twigs. It was just waiting to snap and I refused to see it? Must be the first-time syndrome. -_-

And I realised how much I've matured from then (or so I hope), and have learnt my lesson to never rely on someone else for happiness. That's just creating bubble of hope that would eventually burst. Sighs. so much for being a dreamer, huh? I guess life's just rubbed that pixie dust off my eyes. I hate that.

Sighs. okay moving on to happy stuff, now there's LOADS of space to shift in the new junk! bwahaha. bleahs. don't know if that is a good thing or bad. well. at least now I know where my things are and can always add the right things to the right pile! hahaha gawd I prolly was born a groundhog my past life.

Alrights! Back to packin'! :)

(Update)Results: My bedside, from this:

To this!!:

hahaa okay nvm doesn't look like much of a diff from here but there truly was lotsa dust and junk! :))

Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you, dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad

'Til I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia

Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because

When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone..

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach

Back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear

Oh, Darling I wish you were here

2009-2010!!

The transition to the year 2010 was fun fun FUNN!!! I'm really glad I had such awesome company, and didn't have a boring one that I guess I had last year? I can't remember top off the mind now. But anyway. tons of pictures will be up of just now I am very sure. :)

Gosh I am really dead beat and it's 4.30am now but I have to write this. Now now, we cannot start the year, no, decade (!!), with laziness, can we? :D Which was also why today at work I left late (it was half day though) and almost had a heart attack finishing all my work cos I really wanted it done TODAY..

It's really fast. 2009 has really been a year of closures for me. Once, with Command with my FYFs0809; the best Command I could ever ask for..and then after having a beautiful summer in the USA; a reluctant departure with a growing love for the country and a newfound love..and then 6months later a quiet, heart-wrenching tug away from hall alone on Boxing day, just me and my favourite place of these 3 years or so, and moving home..a start of a whole new chapter of re-nesting and habit-recreating.

So much has happened and despite everyone putting up pictures and reminiscing the past year or decade, I refuse to do that right now. Actually really, cos i'm really damn shagged. haha.

Back to the countdown to 2010!! Met the CG gang and Charlynn at Timbre mobile @ ECP.. My first time..It's so pretty there! I love the enviro-friendly ambience, with the ever-entertaining GoodFellas. Good food, drinks, music and company, what more is there to ask for? :D

It was a pretty darn good time we were having, me, very much charmed by the voices of the GoodFellas and the infectious fun they looked like they were having onstage, and we played some cards too, which was quite funny.. had some drinks (2 Kamikaze shots, 1 Pina Colada and half a Heineken), and had tons of pictures taken all the way til we left and hit the beach!!

It was awesome, minutes before countdown the staff handed out party stuff, and we started spraying partystring and blowing those party things..and then the clock struck midnight and the ships blared their horns twice or thrice? and shot out those emergency red lights into the sky like fire works!

Plus, guess what's special tonight? It's a blue moon night!! Can u believe how cool it is? The night was brightly lit by a full moon..the second one this month! Hence the name blue moon.

So cool right!! What a perfect start to the new year!

We hit the beach and played with sparklers..the standard sparkler air-drawings ensued, and tons of pictures taken! Some are damn nice! Like the one that says (marry me) and Charlynn's and my huge heart!! Oh well will post when pics are uP!

Me n Char's Perfect heart!! :) For u, L!

Conjoined angels!

jul's the horny devil!!

Look at all our pretty shapes..n jul's third finger..loL!

Adrian should get the hint now..haha
, L!

okok anw the beach part was okay apart from being disgusted from the noisy bangla bunches everywhere on the beach (i deduced that it was actually quite sad for them cos they have to spend NY's overseas and with other guy workers..it's practically NS overseas!) and moving on to campgrounds--well u can almost call it that cos everyone got their tents up on every possible space (super sad! Our beach looked like a renovation site with ppl camping on them!! :( )..

Let's just say I wouldn't show any foreign friends ECP during seasons like this?? Arghh damn sad, the lack of land and natural resources..

Still, we have lots to thank for, and anyway I still had a wonderful night!! Pics will be up soon!

Okay technically i fell asleep and finished the last two phrases on NY's day, 1/1/10!! hahaha

HAPPYY 2010 my Lovelies!!

Christreemas

Back to Christmas, which has passed quicker than I'd expected it to... I kinda was looking forward to it the entire 4months before this, and then it hit mid-December and Christmas seemed to have lost its meaning for me because of a certain change in arrangements. :'(

However, it still turned out Christmassy and family-ey cos well, it is, afterall, Singapore. And how can u not be happy with all the bright shiney lights in town and Christmas jingles on tv and new promotions in every mall trying to suck out every penny from everyone during this happy season? -_- LOL. so anyway I took pictures of Xmas trees around Spore and I wanted to make a collage of it!

...... okay i am too lazy to find out how to do that.

Well I suck at IT stuff so anyway i'm going to post them up blogger style. bwahaa. :(

In order: star-themed tree from Raffles City, Ferrero Rocher tree outside Taka, Huge gold n velvet tree in Tampines Mall, Tiny blue tree in West Coast Plaza, Amazing redbauble in Changi T3 that opens up, City Square's Faerie tree at night, Pink teddy trees in Taka and the purple walk-in tree outside Ion (so sad couldn't take a close-up)!

Woots! So pretty right?? I totally cannot choose my favourite tree lor!! okay my phone pictures really do none of the trees justice. What to do. Losers with no cameras (don't even dare talk to me about DSLRs) can't be chosers. hahaha! Well it's okay, i got to see them and they made my Christmas!! :) you gotta agree that they stepped up on decos (at least a wee bit) this Xmas! :)

Merry Christmas to those still in the cheery mood! :)

The last peektures of C606~

Okay, for keepsakes this is just going to be uploaded. Don't worry about me peeps, the emo-ness is done and i'm moving on to decorate the new abode now at home!! Lots to pack and redeco, and to majorly revamp my comfort zone. :)

Here's the last looks of C606 anyway.

My bedside and the boxful of last sem's mess..

Look at the whole stackful of old books to be sold!! There are about 15++!! Hah dumped them to sis to sell for me next sem.. these gems are $$ okayy. :P
My cosy little corner!! :) Spot Lil' L!

Half-packed with my closet emptied into bags which i shifted out of the room.. all the small knick-knacks still lying around..

Shucks I miss my note-filled door! But only rmred to take a pic after I'd removed them..kinda stuck and hung back my name.. -_-'

Less than half of the room in those bags..
Oops its abit dark but anw was damn emo when i took this pic.

Whew okay! That's a closure! Oh my 3 whole entries on moving out!! :S Pardon all this fuss about a room.. it means alot to me okayy. :D

The last moment.

Alrightey.. OFFICIALLY the last few hours (or the last hour) left in my sweet ol' C606.

An upbeat tune's streaming from the radio ("Be my escape", how apt!) -- the room's filled with more dust than things... One more reason for me to leave -- My bed's prolly the cleanest thing left; my pink sailship in a sea of dust and mites; it's the last thing I want to clear, apart from disconnecting my radio and lappie... these are the last few shreds of connection I have with the room now, was really unwilling (even up to this point actually), to strip them off because it takes away the biggest part of me from this room... My music, my internet, and my bed(Little larry n winnie pillow still in place). It really is all I need.
Sitting on my bed with everything packed save the bed

My memories are packed in a box; I've filled all the bags I can find in the room..my trinklets, notebooks, accessories, clothes; and taken my name and doorgift off the door [:'(]

It still pretty much feels like my room right now, but not anymore once I strip the bed of my pink wraps and stash Lil' L and Wpill away in the car..

THIS IS IT. THE LAST MOMENT. :'(

And even then, awesome music is streaming in from the radio, as if it's my mini farewell to this life I've loved so much. It's time to move on..Byebye C606!

One last look out the window to see the newly built NBS that i won't get to use!! :(

C606, I love you!

Gahhh.. I've barely been in my room half an hour and I'm abit cannot take it now.. the emo-ness.

Not that Power98 is helping much by playing all the emo love songs on their Saturday Night track. :'( I went down to find SeanLiew cos he's the only one I know would be ard (parked beside his car) but even he just left to party.. sighs. waved to Minyi across the block as she went out to Butter, and Weili's playing Dota.

I do love chilling in my room, I love it to bits, I do. But on this last night, the thought that I will never do this again, is simply overwhelming.. The cool night air is blowing in, something I won't feel much on my bed at home, the comfort of the silence alone wraps around like a cuddly cotton blankie. This is mine. My very own space. Well, going to be a "was" soon.. :'(

It's going to be so weird not EVER stepping back to dump my bag on the floor of this room, spread my baby blankie over the bed and snoozing, waking up to the sounds of neighbours, running to the toilet to wash up, meeting neighbours on the way, running to borrow or lend things to and from random neighbours, chatting down the lift, stopping on almost every floor, seeing ppl stream in and out, and then reaching back into total privateness when I enter my lemon-scented room by just shutting the door.

This is all going to go when I pack up and shut the door tmw, closing the door to the entire life I have lived the past 3 1/2 years. It has become such a way of life that moving back home FOREVER (til i get married maybe) of my young twenties life seems. o_O'

Sighs.

I'm going to be so envious of the next C606-er. For now, I'm going to tide the night through.

Packin'!

*sneeeze sneeze!!!* In the midst of packing the room at home to make way for more room for junk from C606!! Dustyy!! It's junk that should've been cleared way long time ago maN! All the goodie bags from NUS and KR, and loads of papers from past semesters, gifts and notes from the sweeties from hall, room decos, boxes of different gadgets (my poor canon and long-suffering nokia phone!) and random things i thought i'd lost (my bangles and old accessories!! Whoopee!hah! and my whole stack of NUS namecards..how nice. after i got a job -_-)...

Shucks, I just regret not taking a picture of the "before" mess and the new clean, empty corner beside my bed!! Whoohoo!! Now its time to ikea it up with a cosy chair or something! :)

Pause for dinner @ Everything with Fries!!! :D

Kay Backk! Whoa damn full. Pretty normal i think, I like the nutella shake best!! But really full until cannot take it.. :b

Anw. so i was thinking. everyone really needs a first relationship. It helps you see how u really behave in a relationship and make the essential mistakes that u don't wanna repeat in the next one.. Someone did mention though, that the more exes u have, the higher your expectation of your partner goes.. I guess that's normal considering u've also tried to improve yourself over the past r/ss..but I don't agree, I find that if they are two totally different guys, there is nothing to compare; it is, afterall, a totally different relationship.

Oh well. it was a passing thought from observation of a first-time couple (at least on one side).. sometimes, at the very least the guy needs some practice to know how a girl is in a r/s, what she expects, how different she can be alone as compared to friends, understand the YES = NO, NO = NO/YES language and hence learn how he can pacify/comfort/flatter/appease/win her over..

On the girl's side, it would help from experience to not overask, to learn to balance love/life and pursue other passions beside the newest one, and to understand the rubberband theory that guys need to pull away sometimes (for whatever male-instinctive reason) but he will always bounce back-- hence to not stifle the boy til that rubberband stretches too thin and snaps.

Or else, sometimes, without this knowledge/experience, that same old fight can keep reoccuring til things get bad beyond repair.

Well not saying that this theory applies to every couple, maybe to younger ones; i've seen lots of examples who've outlived my theory so it's not that generic anyway.

Random rants!

Santa!...Santa?

Just saw Lance and Sharon's Miami pics and they are so pretty!! They are so cute together.. Really missing L so much right now. Miami was the place we parted, and had our own escapade together..two short weeks of sun, sand and sea, with no care in the world save the impending day of my departure that drew nearer..

Didn't think so much back then; guess I should've thought a little further. But we're young and wild and free (well it pretty much felt like that in America) and distance was the last thing we had then. But now, as Christmas draws nearer--it is the eve of eve in fact, and being alone right now makes it hard to think about any cheer or hold on to hope that it might work out.

I know, i know. I shldn't be this gloomy especially after carolling and spreading cheer to the masses. It's just. hard.. (wow..miley cyrus just came on w "the climb"..how apt) esp after the bugger hasn't been online for these few days to Xmas so far..

Xiaxue recently got engaged to her Texan bf..the biggest news on bloggersphere now, but truly it was a pretty story the way both of them told it. Completely changed the girl's attitude on love; or so. She's still pretty loud and foulmouthed but it's the candidness that makes her special I guess. Glad that didnt' change. Well the point is. It sounds QED, but i guess they had their troubles too and maybe that's some comfort for what i'm going thru..

Anyway really a total different case altogether. not much to compare. Sighs. okay. gonna stop ranting and end here. just getting more miserable.. :'( Blackie I envy u being in NYC nowwwwww!!