Rawrr in the year of 2010~

Finally, there are some decent pictures for me to post on my pic-starved blog!! Cos sis came back and i used her cam to go round snapping pics during our first CNY after Ah kong's passing..

:( I was a tad nostalgic and missing him when we got our first ang bao from ahma on chuxi night after the steamboat... It is usually after or followed by Ahkong's first angbao!! The rest of the aunties and uncles give theirs the next day on Chu yi..Can't believe like 3 years has passed since the last official CNY where we used to take family pictures in our small families and then altogether as a huge bunch!

Ohwell, anyway we took a cousin picture for Emmie who's away in NZ! Check us out, all grown up and tall now, no more those kids on the floor dressed in flowery dresses! :) Super fast.

Anyway this year's CNY was rowdy and vibrant, and we had the buffet again on the first night for the Sinma staff, our tradition for years now except the last couple..super crowded! The food ran out pretty quick too! But we were so bored we started camwhoring. haha! see below.

I realise with visiting, that when we are finally old enough to understand the true meaning behind visiting the extended relatives, that they have suddenly become pretty old. Many of them are frail and the age shows with dark spots and cracked voices, slowing movements.

Instead of mindlessly chomping down on the usual goodies, I start to listen to the conversations only my parents have each year with them..suddenly realising that this might not be, in another 5 years down the road.. I wonder how things will be like when we take over as parents, and my parents take over as being the "visited".. I hope things will be the same, if not more close-knit. :)

Anyway, here are some of my fav pics!

雨过天晴！

Yes it truly feels like the clouds have moved away and i just threw a huge haversack off my back! I think even my colleague feels the change and i'm full of bounce today. :D

Things are settling better and seemingly more manageable for the SRM and it the slots are slowly coming through..I hope the lady with 10shops zidong come and find me after haggling for the minimum price without giving any confirmation! Grr. I don't neccessarily need you now, my hardwork has paid off, though i can't be too complacent. yet.

Still. Happy that things are moving along better, and hopefully the cheques will come in as well! :) As always, things can always be worse. haha my tagline recently.

Well of course, happiness stems not only from progress for the SRM, but from the heartstrings tied oh-so-far away too.. every obstacle we face just drives the fact that it matters that much to me, more starkly into my unconvincing brain. It's just impossible to not feel anything even with the distance. Theo, u're wrong, Brain, u were wrong too. Apparently the emotions seem all the more tangible because that's all we have right now.

And the fact that we are both affected the same way makes those feeling somehow more worthwhile? that it isn't one-sided and somewhere miles away, we were both hurt and then felt the pain lift away when the argument was solved.. If I am not wrong, someone reallyreally likes me as much as i want him; too bad we are miles apart.

haha cheesy i know.

kk gg to stop here cos i shluoldn't be blogging at work!Tata.

I hate dealing with crazy uncles.
I duno why i'm feeling so blue today.
I hate waiting.
I hate being used.
I hate not being able to help being used.
I hate feeling so sorry for myself.
I hate being stuck where i am.


I'm so glad i'm seeing J in half an hour.

Woots new bodehh here i come

Hahahaha. I swam and did sauna today! I've found a new favourite place to love!! THe Chinese swimming club pool!! there were only 3 ppl today including me!! Loves it.

Kudos to me, ive been exercising everyday this week! Run on Mon and Tues, Swim and sauna on Wed! It's time for some chillout sessions tmw w Theo!! Woots can't wait! :)

CNY dresses here I come! (lol but can't say too early, dinner w theo tmw, co. chalet w bbq buffet on Sat! :x)

horoscope jan27

You may be happy if the pressure in your life is decreasing and that your experiences have taught you as much as they did. You have the opportunity now to integrate your feelings into your social interactions. Trusting others enough to freely share your heart is the greatest gift possible. Don't miss this chance to let someone special past your defensive walls.


Why is today's horoscope so ling!! :D

Love Hurts...Love Hearts.
The difference is one or two letters.

So apt.

boredboredboredboredbored!!!

Yo.

Yes I know I haven't been updating..but the past two weeks, honestly there wasn't much about my life but work, home, and mini meet ups..It's the end of a week again; honestly time seems monotonous and fluid now, passing fast and becoming more and more mundane.. every weekend I literally grasp the roots of my hair and walk around the house going "damnboreddamnboreddamnbored" until my ma really gets it. and then I eat more, sleep more, and eat more again. GAH.

Seeing the recent block shoot pictures didn't help things..I'm glad an awesome girl took my place. But it seems I've been wiped out of their worlds; perhaps I wasn't a strong entity in the first place. sighs. it seems a faraway life time.

That urge to take flight beats so strongly right now, especially after seeing xun's pictures in France, those beautiful, snowy mountains and pretty churchy houses.. I'm missing out on all the snow winter around the world is offering! And then yesterday the Hope for Haiti all-star live on mtv and channels all around the world just really triggered another stirring in my heart. If i didn't have work commitments, I would do something to help. I mean, right now it's just donations of money and blood, but like if I could be there physically, i would.

Although, I know; Singapore's so far away and people here are too apathetic to care about Haiti anyway. Sighs. I know. I just feel very sad for all those poor people there and the crying babies with nothing to eat nor drink. If only Newater sent gallons of those tiny bottles of clean water our people scoff at over to Haiti, this world would be a tiny bit happier somewhere else.

Well despite all my ranting and the inner traveller in me clamoring to get out, I am still excited and of course nervous about my upcoming event. At least vendor requests are coming in (though not pouring in enthusiastically, but good enough i guess), and I'm seeing a more solid picture going to form and materialise (i hope!)! Good luck to meee!

Meanwhile, i think i should get my lazy ass off and figure a way to fit some exercise into my regime. I'm. getting. fat. literally! :( How am i gonna fit into those CNY dresses!! gahh. and I need to fill my schedule with more socialising and maybe, Korean classes? hehe. thinking of that. I'm going to be so shagged when March hits. Planplanplan in advance!

okie dokes. enough ranting. Wish I have pretty pictures to post but currently it's zilch with no camera nor a good bod to show off. haha! bleah hope things look cheerier come CNY! :)

Beanie Baby

This is a really random post, but while I'm uploading phone pics, think this should go up on my blog.. Yesterday at dinner time while the whole family was at the dinner table save my ma and Huifang's ma who were looking after the baby, it fell asleep after having milk and ma was tired of carrying it, so we put it in the huge beanie to sink into its cushy goodness.


And here's how Baby B looked like:

A tiny thing in a huge beanie..we always have a pillow over its tummy to keep it warm and give it weight or smth to sleep.. Anw if u spot his posture..

The beanie apparently is so comfy he has his hands behind his head, relac style! hahaha cuteness.



Anw, as to the previous post, all's fine!! False alarm, theory 4 was right. bah. technology and its side-effects. :P

L where are u?

Sighs. Our song is playing on the radio right now. I'm worried. He hasn't replied my email for 2days now, really unlike him to take so long.. the thing about an LDR is that it is crazy hard to know how the other person is doing if he doesn't get back to you.. It's not like I knew him long enough to know his friends, family or anyone long-lasting enough to be mutual friends.. :(

It's like. I have 5 theories why he isn't replying..
1) Email didn't get thru (highly unlikely, it's gmail.)
2) He doesn't want to reply cos he has no answer to my question/succinct hint/tinge of irritation
3) He's cheating on me and decided to take advantage of the convenience of distance to dump me without any emotional baggage (nah. don't think so.)
4) Internet/phone broke down
5) Something bad has happened to him

And right now it's theory 5 that's bugging me to no end. I was a tinge bit frustrated about the distance (not literally) that has been growing cos of the lack of close communication (meaning msning and webcalls) during the holidays. So I sent him an email. Christmas and New year was really a long period! Plus, I didn't get to spend them with my special someone. (*whines*)

But now i'm feeling a tad regretful and guilty for even showing a hint of neediness, because if anything's happened to him, I don't want my last words to him to be "hey i need more attention" but more along the lines of "hey i'm here for you".

Sighhhhhs. I think I'm getting karma for being so needy in my first relationship, so now I'm being taught a lesson to not be so reliant.

God. I'm going crazy being worried right now. It's funny cos I'm feeling a different kind of tired now, 8months into this new r/s. It's like, being pulled back and forth missing-thinking of him, and then worried-thinking of the entire situation.

I know I know, I'm thinking too much. But what if something really happened to him!!? There is no way i will ever know of it!! sobs. omgomgomg. Okay i know i'm over-reacting and I shld go to sleep now..

gosh. I'm tired.

I don't know if we both each have a destiny, or if we were all just floating around accidentally like on a breeze..

But I think, maybe it's both. Maybe both's happening at the same time.

-Forrest Gump