In this world, there is no place I'd rather be..

I was right. C.ommand. W.ill be A.wesome T.onight, as promised by the C.W.A.T team, was indeed awesome, tho less teary than the past few. Maybe because it was my own. I am more than satisfied at how it turned out, and it's the perfect closure.

Thanks C.W.A.T for everything, the C-onfession session and the C-ommand part.. it was more than I could ask for. :))

Time to sleep! We ended officially at 530am, and then left ard 7am, went to have bfast at Engine Macs and just got back and showered. Cblock really trumps all blocks. :)) Updates again soon!

Emo entry

Today, after my thai quiz, came the quiet acknowledgement of freedom..the past consecutive weeks of non-stop flurrying, stressing about several projects and presentations at the same time, has finally come to an end! It was really the busiest I've experienced in my 3 yrs man. Esp w command practices. However, quiet, because it also marks the almost-end of my semester, and I'm not excited because it means I'm just left with one more, which is going to be different anw because things would've changed with the FYFs gone..

Tonight, will be the most apt closure, for it's Cblk C-ommand! I haven't really been looking forward to it's arrival, though I can say I am pretty excited about its contents.. I'm just not anticipating the emo part; I don't even know what to say in my speech! I remember about a coupla months ago I was thinking of this night, my mind full of things I wanted to say..I was on the bus, and then David tan's "til the end" came on, and I cried all the way from KR to Far east.

Siao. that was damn emo. I think the night before I played poker and enjoyed it a bit too much, and was just thinking on that ride that I'll really miss all these moments; the guys' cute antics; all my special times here; times that will never repeat once I step out of Kr's glass doors. Arrgh emo. I think the FYFs have started to learn how to mentally let go, but because I'm still in the middle of leaving and staying, I am so lost!

I wonder how Alvin Ng coped. I wonder what I'll say tonight. I wonder if.. ....Actually. I know it's gonna be a great C-ommand, and there's this overwhelming pride because I knwo the rest of the blocks have just finished theirs, and no matter how, none of them will beat the experience the Cblockers will get tonight.

Sighs. I probably did something good my last life to deserve Cblock. :S

Bus blog!

Alright, on the bus now, on the way home. Sadly, this is the only time I really have to blog. Stuck in a bus full of people, with this guy almost dozing onto my shoulder...eeks! And I almost couldn’t get a seat! Had to rush the half of my report on the bus before I hit home. Can’t believe I’m this busy. Lots to say about Command! Pics and vids have all been uploaded on FB and I’m guilty of spending most of these nights watching them over and over again, feeling the waves of satisfaction everytime the crowd cheered and awwed.

I HAVE POST-COMMAND BLUES!! Miss the late night practices and the times spent with all the fyfs..I am really proud to say I have at least played in a rock band in my entire life! And danced too. In front of an audience!! Surprisingly, before I stepped up to perform, I felt no ounce of trepidation or panic. AMAZING. Haha. I think a few of the finale peeps were shivering in their knees juz before we went up! I usually feel like puking. I think I was just high on adrenaline?

Anyway, it was a mind-blowing success! Really really felt so proud and happy we did it! Like what Lester said, “this easily trumps anything else I’ve done in hall” Yeahhhh!!~ Apart from maybe parts of FWOC and blueblood? Thanks to all the FYFs who've made it wonderful, and Blackie, for being such a great i/c, I've truly learnt much from u, and had lots of fun along e way! :)

And truly, I think the ppl who’ve Commanded would agree that Command really brings people together. I’ve come to know how awesome some hall peeps really are, like Nick n Juan, Andi Kurnia, Alvan, Wilson kam, and really really nice people like meisi, yunhui, pearline..People I would otherwise not have ever spoken to in my entire life!

I think our batch of FYFs did a great job, and at the same time got pretty close, for acquaintances, at least. It’s like, at least we’ve done something awesome together, you know? That kind of feeling where we will always look back on and know that we’ve been a part of something we created together. Even if after this we all go separate ways and prolly only see some others only once more in our entire life, or even not at all..

I cried when we did our family song..totally didn’t expect it seconds before when we were behind the curtain..cos we just did a fantastic finale, so where got mood to cry? But somehow, I burst into tears when we merged into the crowd, after I saw Baby and Joycie and Cass and the 6thfloorers.. :S And I think I’m damn embarrassed especially at one pt of time, when I saw Big Lionel, I actually meant to laugh and say “ I can’t believe it’s my turn now!” and went to hug him but somehow I ended up sobbing it out on his shoulder.. That was embarrassing. I think some ppl saw. :S haha

I think Cblk command will be more emotional man. I really can’t imagine. Sighs. People come and go. I've just got to learn to let go right now. KR's really been more than just home away from home..it was my own haven of privacy and solace; a special place that gave me new talents and knowledge, and most of all, new people i've come to love..

I asked Blackie if she'd come back often, and she said prolly not that much, because things would have changed; it'd just be different. I think so too! I'm feeling a little part of me move on with the FYFs, even tho i'm staying next sem..yet I am so unwilling to leave this part of my life behind..

*sighs* Parting is such bittersweet sorrow.

UPDates soon i promise!

I've a billion and one things to blog about right now, my heart's gushing with all the things I wanna share. But I can't!! Cos I have two hours to finish my reports and head home for bro's send-off dinner--he's gg to Tekong on Monday!! My beloved baby bro. Sighs. Time flies.

Will update after this week, when it is true liberation!! BWHAHAHA ppl w exams..sucks to be u.. nyahnyah.. :P

Teehee. P.s forgive my anal evilness. Sucks to be me now. :S

Miley Cyrus - The Climb - Official Music Video (HQ)

This keeps playing on 98.7fm and it's kinda like my motivation in really stressful periods now..my beacon in e dark stormy night..taking from riz. lol. I like Miley's voice here..it's just so earnest, and the lyrics really help with the Faith. :)

Sighs. Blue days Blue Days go away...

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

王力宏2008 心．跳 -春雨裡洗過的太陽MV官方高畫質完整版

I love Leehom! I wish this song came out in 2007. And I love his guitar and the caravan in this vid too :)

dichan phuut phasaa thay dii maak!

:))

I kinda redeemed myself today. When we had a meeting with the prof, and I brought up my points and she actually said they were very good!! :) well apparently I was kinda right all along, just that in the group there were two others supporting the opposing perspective and I was not eloquent enough to stand strong for mine.

Haha it feels good to know my contribution ain't bs... I think this sem I learnt alot about myself working with so many new ppl this intensively for this four mods.. really damn GG can some group members! So many different working styles. But I guess the pressure and "group politics" isn't as bad as I think it can be, prolly the kind I'll face next yr when i grad.

Anyway, My first *secret* practice just now!! It is officially two am now and I am procrastinating my case analysis to write this, but. I'm just elated I've learnt smth new! :)) One more up on the list of things I can do! Plus thai. I was waiting for the bus today and while chatting with someone, realised that I am really glad I took it up! I really love learning a new language, and I'm kinda good at it! Even though today was really upsetting cos I was so super tired I kinda dozed off in language class, which was ultra upsetting. I literally walked out of the classroom shoulders slumped and feeling at the bottom of the world.

But i realise I'm much better at languages than some ppl! At least those i observe in class.. maybe it's cos I'm chinese and it's easier for us to learn thai? Did u know we are actually better at picking up thai than the Vietnamese? At least that's what i observed. Cos they just don't seem to get the tones right, and it's actually quite hilarious in class. Anyway I'll be meeting lots of Thais in US and Cass says they will absolutely love me if I can speak it.. haha something that helps a little to ease the looming fear of meeting strangers alone..

okays shucks I better get down to work. or sleep at least. Will be going flying with Maoch in a private plane on friday!! Awesome. One more first! :)

Maybe I am perfect as I am.

Don't u wish u were brilliant sometimes?

I think the worst feeling in the world is when someone thinks you're inadequate. Or at least implicitly implies you're just not good enough. Not like my virgoan nature isn't already stabbing my ego and confidence enough already. Like, thanks for the reminder, I already know I am xxxxx on top of the one hundred and one other talents I know I don't possess. *huge sigh*

Friends like these just make me understand how much acutely aware of my flaws I am.

O'miserable day. :(

Snicker, Snicker, Snickersnackkk!

Yayyy this week is officially over, and another week of work, dance pracs, and events is gg to roll over again all over me.. I have officially 2 case analysis reports, 3 project reports, 3 presentation slides, 2 dances to master and something new to learn (secret!).. *faints*!! It really feels as if once I finish a ppt/report another one pops out again. NEVERENDING!!

This is officially the busiest 3 weeks ever this whole year can!!! And next week, when my 4 presentations and 4 reports are due, there is also Old Hats supper, C blk culture night, and Command to prep for.. woohoo. I guess this is something to remember command for man. the overwhelming wave of work. lol. Oh yes, we finished our videos! Yay i can't wait for it to be compiled..some parts are pretty funny.. :)

Anyway, I wanted to post about Amplitude!! :D My first ever! In terms of watching or performing.. so exciting! I'm so glad it's one more thing I've done in KR. We were the best, of course, according to the audience, and from the video, too! So happy.. And the pics are all over fb! Makes my short hair look pretty awright, I kinda like it! And I got to wear my red Wizard of Oz heels for e first time! Made me ultra tall, but I love it! Accentuated my 70s outfit. :)

Okay here are some pics!
Playing ard in e dressing rm!
Love e colours!
On stage during phototake

The concert itself
And then since it was mambo night...
We mamboed away!

Super fun, my second time only, and this time w a pro (Samuel)..but we went abit early and had to leave early so it was quite short, but well. Sweet. :)

Oh yes, and today was Cheerobics behind Zouk in the carpark! Went down to support..my first time! It was awesome, and a little heartstopping, when our Steppers did their stunts.. They really did fabulously, hardly any glitches at all! So when we were announced third, I was personally astounded, and most were shocked. Tops swept away by NTU. :( The second team honestly wasn't as good as us! :(( Sighs. Well anyway we caught this group of mgs pri sch gals for a pic. Aren't they super adorable? Damn tiny in their cheersuits. Had to take a pic! :P


I love the one right in front of me! The tiniest one ;)

I've got a mean streak.

Sometimes I'm so mean I shock myself. But most of the time I realise it too late. They say 泼出去的水是收不回来的.. sighs. That happens alot to me and sometimes I think if I were with Me, Myself and I, one of us would have taken a gun and shot the other already, or at least given the other one tight slap. Sighs.

Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.