Grinch stole Xmas? or the Grouch?

It is such a gloomy day! There was a short burst of sunlight for around 9-10am, and then I think it has been drizzling all day. No huge gusts of wind nor buckets of rain with dark, clouded skies.. It has just been a bluish grey, skyless plain of clouds and it has remained like this for most of the day now.. no drama at all.

So the day was spent watching Zack n Miri, and then I trudged through the drizzles to post my measly 8 Christmas cards.. all bound overseas. I thought I'd accomplish more; I have another 22more in the box to go! People leave me your addresses please. :)

It would be perfect if L were here to laze such a day away with me; well. Then again I guess lounging in C606 for now is almost as close to perfection as I can ask for, some more Me time can never be detrimental. :)

I cancelled today's Burberry internship interview; I hope it's not a bad move. Partially cos I didn't want to go there just to say hey, I think I already got a job and I prefer it to this internship, and partially cos I was really lazy to get out of bed :X bleahs. Z Monsterstruck.

I think i will take it up. It would be really cool to be in charge of such a huge event, would be such an adrenaline rush if I succeed right? Meanwhile I don't know if I need a break or not; Clement says I definitely need one after all these years of studying. But I feel like this sem has already been a break. And after all. I don't feel like going anywhere else because L ain't coming anymore. :(

Kinda feeling abit jaded this Christmas now. No Christmas parties to look forward to, nor gatherings, nor travelling. Dang I think it's the weather that's making me feel gloomy. :'(

Sighs. Neighbours going out right now, FRIDAY NIGHT with no company?? This sucks. okay i'm really whining now. this is bad. I have to do something.

Feeling like this:

Maybe..

Maybe some kinds of love were meant to be fleeting.

Maybe..I'm starting to not believe in Santa anymore..

...Now what?

I got it!!! My first job offer!!! Hm. but then alot to consider though I am interested in the job scope. No more play time! And abit scary too. I'll be thrown to do the Singapore River Market project!!! :)) Eggciting. No fear!

Catch: I'll be all by myself (mostly), and remuneration wise... ... :X

Ohwell. Despite the mountain of saikang i'm going to do, it has a really really interesting jobscope tho. If i move on to something else I would be able to say I did the SRM all by myself right?? If I'm successful. haha. I think my DM is quite smart too, totally doesn't look like he lectures at NUS Bizad though.

Okay. then L how? Sighs. The world still revolves, leaving us behind..

Even if things don't go right, we all know that life goes on, and we move on; or the world moves on without you.

OH babybabybaby baby oh babybaby oh babyyy~

OKay, I realise I haven't really updated much about my life for the longest time. Was going through the many posts in year 3 before this summer, Choir's Amplitude, our small stint in hall production, the many Cblk outings, and of course, Command.

REally brings up alot of memories of my past 3+ years of hall life, and this is, truly, going to be a part of my life that I will always look back and cherish so much.

Anyway. This is not going to be an emo post just yet! I still have 25 more days in hall! :D Tho there are not many people are going to be around..but I will enjoy my peace in room C606 for the last time, and the familiar faces I miss seeing everytime I open my door or stroll down Cblk's hottest 6th flr! :)

This post is firstly about our newest addition to the family!! Just this weekend, the family visited Zhanming gor's house to visit the week-old baby, Braydon, who's the third baby boy of their pretty family..

He's so cute! And everyone was really gushing over him because, I realise, after asking Jayden the 2nd cutie how old he is, that it's been 3 years since we've last had a baby in the house, and well, it's always nice to have a new life and new member to the family!

I think Amah is really fortunate to see three great grandchildren!! Great Grand Amah leh!! Awesome. I also want can. :) I hope she gets to see my kids too! She looked so pretty in this pic where I captured her joyous expression.

Anyway so Reagan is loud, active and looks like he has leadership(mafia kind but leadership nevertheless) potential, haha; and Jayden is sweet and obedient and really adorable; so I really wonder how this new baby will be.. it'll be really cute to see the 3 of them together!
Left to right, youngest first: Braydon, Jayden, Reagan

The brothers look like each other right? So cute! Should prolly grow up to be tall guys like their parents.. hope they will be as shuai next time as they are cute now!

On another note, L's not coming anymore. We are really both feeling miserable about it but I guess i have no right to rant because this kinda situations should be expected right? Thought I buffered myself well but. oh well. LIFE REALLY SUCKS. :( Worse thing is we both are available this season just that distance and money are really huge barriers to overcome. WHYY.

Santa can u hear me? I have been so good this year. All I want is one thing, tell me my true love is here, he's all I want, just for me. Underneath my Christmas tree. I'll be waiting here, Santa that's my only wish this year..

okay cheesy. but oh so true. :'(

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So, Korea was awesome!! Fab weather, got to wear pretty thick clothing..and my best buy was a huge thick coat for 12SGD!! Happy anot? haha!

Well I admit it is a tad of a hassle tho to have cold weather cos its' so easy to get sick..I come out of the hotel everyday w sniffles and have to use loads of tissue..and when doing our daily work I think i got sick too cos coming in and out of the warm shops into the cold air kinda tested my body's resistance.

But I love the cold air! It really wakes u up and keeps u going. And not to say gives a good complexion too! :)

Anyway this post is posted from youtube, because loads of Korean MVs and songs were playing all over, and they really get stuck in ur head cos they are soo catchy! Sorry sorry is one of them. I like the girl version too! Will find more and post! :))

I miss Korea!!

Stifled.

After yet another hapless conversation with the mother (trying to explain my bf situation), which resulted in nothing again, and then early morning pressing by the dad who wants me to go for this walk-in job interview for this company dealing in retail and sales; I've come to realise that our lives are really not much more our own than our parents', who can lay claim to it anytime since they pretty much brought us up this 20+ years.

And I really resent that. I know this is sounding really spoilt and all, like really ungrateful to all that they have put in to get me to where I am, but I'm really feeling so stifled and owned. I guess I should've done somethign to earn my own keep all these years, because maybe I deserve this situation I am in now. My life is pretty much my parents' to dictate. Especially now when I'm going to leave hall in a month's time, and the impending job-searching period is here, it's a really confusing and frustrating transition period. :(

I wish I was all alone in this and yet I don't want to be all alone in this. Yes I appreciate your help but help is okay and trying to stream me your way is not. Why am I 22 yet still have to conform to your decisions? Will I have to do this til I'm finally married? THen my body belongs to someone else, even if I finally have the rights to my own decisions.

Sometimes the rebel in me really wants to take flight and leave. Stop protecting me from the mess u THINK i will get into, the difficulties u THINK i will face. okay i WANT to face this and i chose this path so i already know the difficulties that are coming and am willing to face it! Doesn't make it any easier but at least i'm prepared. How can I give it up just cos I know it is tough?

omg i feel like such a Singaporean kid. Singaporean because that's what we are. Sheltered, Protected, and unwilling to face difficulties...

HOME!

Hey world! I'm back in Singapore! And life's been great, except that my heart's still left in VA.

Well so I flew over from SF alone to Taiwan, and met Angels along the way. The Filipino Cabbie in SF, and the Limousine driver in Taiwan.

Well basically I was stranded, and honestly I kinda felt abit lonely and lost, because on the plane I was really getting excited to meet peeps from back home! Anyways, I met really nice people at the limousine service at the airport, and basically this lady and fatherly figure helped me dial the numbers of more than 8 hotels, so I could follow my backup plan to book the cheapest hotel for myself.

And then when I managed to contact the rest, the Uncle actually took me for a cheaper price in his car and then brought me around abit, treated me Taiwan's famous bitter tea, and really took care of me! I've never experienced such generosity and warmth from a stranger, and it was pretty overwhelming..

Anyways. So I'm back here, and we had an S41 outing on saturday, which was awesome!! Almost 15 of us turned up again, the usual number, and really caught up after 3whole months! Even Yeanching the lost girl came! Didn't see her for nearly a year! It was amazing. These peeps really made me miss home.

Met up w Xiaowei too! I missed her loads! She's hilarious as usual, and grown up in many ways now after Shanghai.. Some ways I wish she wouldn't have gone thru. But still, we've both improved in our own ways after travelling.. She from the East, and Me from the West. So it was the East meet West actually! :) Realise the world is really small afterall. And the world has flipped. The people I met were more conservative than the people she met in China! It's become the opposite now, it's ironic, and a little frightening. I'm glad I went to the West though. Really glad.

Well coming back to hall, I feel a little cut off from the rest cause of missing FWOC and all the orientation thingys. Hopefully I'll catch up soon! Plus it's IBG season meaning I gotta get my stamina gearing up again! Bleahs. Have to start exercising soon!! haha cannot slack Year 4 cannot slack!!!

OKay. Next up be prepared for a whole chunk of pics from everything in USA K!! cos Now finally uploaded my stuff now that i'm back :DD

Safe in San Francisco!

And so I'm here in SF now. I love this place! Miracles have been happening to me such that I got here safely, got a fantastic place to live in, met two other Singaporeans and travelled abit to my fav places here, and am having a ball of a time!

Gonna shop abit at Union sq now before I hit e airport! WOOHOOOO!! Taiwan tonight I come!

Roadtrip!

Alrightey! SO sorry for that long wait for a post..internet at the dorm really sucked the past weeks and then so many things happened before I really had time to put them down in words.

Well so anyways I'm here in Miami now with Larry, and it's been a hellava happening time so far. We started our roadtrip three days after I ended work on 26th July SUnday, after we were done with my termination stuffs, visiting the park for the last few times for me, searching for good internet down at VCU and finally settling down in "THE CAMEL" (which was a liveband pub, damn cool), visiting BMW for his new car stuffs, and also after getting a new kayak and racks for the car so we could secure the two boats on top of his BMW..whew.

And so Wednesday, we hit James River in Richmond after finding our new Kayak, at about 5pm.. so we were happily kayaking down the peaceful stream where there were tons of fat ducks leaving their doodoos around the rocks.. and then we reached the really fast part where the stream started to really have mini waterfalls and current was stronger and there was a bit of whitewater.. and then stupid me decided to take the risk (cos we were barely down the river) and go down those waves cos it looked like fun and i had faith in my rowing abilities to come back upstream..

ah. stupid move. Because my faith was nothing compared to inexperience. Shouldn't have ventured the deep waters because although we saw prettier sights and we were having fun and all, getting back upstream was no joke..I really had no strength to push back up the current and the water was flowing fast and pushing my boat down the bigger waterfalls, and it's no joke cos the falls can juz sink u under and snap ur ribs in half! Plus the huge rocks up and under the river made it tedious cos I kept getting stuck on top of rocks or between them and it just wasted my energy even more.

So Larry was trying another route back up while avoiding the rocks, but water was flowing really fast..and his boat capsized..the older, better boat. WITH MY BAG IN IT! And more than 200USD of cash (because he just banked out some for me) with my cards- ID, intl phonecard, Bank of Am card, Matric card, EZlink(at least 5bucks) and neoprints and more impt stuffs. Worse of all, my camera, and shades and some other stuffs..DAMN SAD!!! I'm still so gek at myself for being an idiot to bring my wallet and camera in e first place.

Sighs. And then we tried to look for it til dusk, and when we gave up it was really almost pitch black. Like. Dark dark. we were guided by the moonlight back to the car, but because we were downstream, we got lost and we had to carry the kayak back and go through another route which had us climbing up and down over gigantic rocks. WHICH SUCKED cos larry had no sandals on (went down the river) and it was F-ing heavy and we still had to balance on rocks to get to the stairway that was in e forest trail to get back to the car.

Some adventure huh. What a first day for our roadtrip! :((

Well that was a huge part of the trip cos we lost lots of money plus the boat which added up to almost 1000USD of assets. :( But I guess God was with us along the way cos at least both of us were okay, pretty much, and I realised i had my camera card switched cos my 8gb was full and i put in a 516mb card which had pics i didn't want already. How Blessed, right? Cos I haven't downloaded ANY of my few thousands of pics so far.. damn heng it's still w me! And my make up I removed from my bag and put in my luggage, so I lost pretty much just cash and camera..which is sad, but still, replaceable.

Ma didnt' give me a hard time about it too. she was so sweet and was like, at least both of us are fine, right? I love u mummy! So happy. :))

And then because of the sunken boat we had to divert our route and we went down to Larry's apartment in Greenville, North Carolina and spent the night on the couches cos his friends were staying in it. That night was simple and awesome. Cos near past midnight the boys were jamming on the keyboard and bass, and it is just pure, unadulterated music, and it was just pleasure watching them jam. They're all from Church and it's like they're all so talented, u know. Larry's best friend D- Demetris, can sing so well toO! and his cousin rocked on the keyboard. And Larry was on the keys and was trying to hit high notes which was so so cute. bwhaaha. Like. airy baby voice. Wish I had my cam to record it.

We were spose to hit Virginia Beach that night. Can u imagine I've been here in VA for 3months but i havent' seen VBeach at all? Damn gek right. But we went down to Myrtle beach though. Spent like 1 night there in a pretty good hotel and then the next night, Friday, we drove down 10hours to hit Miami Beach! Damn shagged for him.

Well we spent a huge part of friday spending time away at this pretty place in Myrtle beach, like a boardwalk with shops and a themepark.. there were lots of ducks and hugeass fish which u could feed with fishfood if u pop quarters in a box every few metres on the wooden handrails.. and then we caught Funny People at about 1130pm so we could spend more time and then hit the road at 12am or so so we could reach Miami in the day on Saturday. I slept half the movie away though. So don't ask me what happened. haha.

okay imma stop here cos it's abit too long and i'm getting a neckache typing on my pillow. bye! update the rest of the 5 days after again soon! :))