Even if things don't go right, we all know that life goes on, and we move on; or the world moves on without you.

OH babybabybaby baby oh babybaby oh babyyy~

OKay, I realise I haven't really updated much about my life for the longest time. Was going through the many posts in year 3 before this summer, Choir's Amplitude, our small stint in hall production, the many Cblk outings, and of course, Command.

REally brings up alot of memories of my past 3+ years of hall life, and this is, truly, going to be a part of my life that I will always look back and cherish so much.

Anyway. This is not going to be an emo post just yet! I still have 25 more days in hall! :D Tho there are not many people are going to be around..but I will enjoy my peace in room C606 for the last time, and the familiar faces I miss seeing everytime I open my door or stroll down Cblk's hottest 6th flr! :)

This post is firstly about our newest addition to the family!! Just this weekend, the family visited Zhanming gor's house to visit the week-old baby, Braydon, who's the third baby boy of their pretty family..

He's so cute! And everyone was really gushing over him because, I realise, after asking Jayden the 2nd cutie how old he is, that it's been 3 years since we've last had a baby in the house, and well, it's always nice to have a new life and new member to the family!

I think Amah is really fortunate to see three great grandchildren!! Great Grand Amah leh!! Awesome. I also want can. :) I hope she gets to see my kids too! She looked so pretty in this pic where I captured her joyous expression.

Anyway so Reagan is loud, active and looks like he has leadership(mafia kind but leadership nevertheless) potential, haha; and Jayden is sweet and obedient and really adorable; so I really wonder how this new baby will be.. it'll be really cute to see the 3 of them together!
Left to right, youngest first: Braydon, Jayden, Reagan

The brothers look like each other right? So cute! Should prolly grow up to be tall guys like their parents.. hope they will be as shuai next time as they are cute now!

On another note, L's not coming anymore. We are really both feeling miserable about it but I guess i have no right to rant because this kinda situations should be expected right? Thought I buffered myself well but. oh well. LIFE REALLY SUCKS. :( Worse thing is we both are available this season just that distance and money are really huge barriers to overcome. WHYY.

Santa can u hear me? I have been so good this year. All I want is one thing, tell me my true love is here, he's all I want, just for me. Underneath my Christmas tree. I'll be waiting here, Santa that's my only wish this year..

okay cheesy. but oh so true. :'(

슈퍼주니어3집_SORRYSORRY_뮤직비디오

So, Korea was awesome!! Fab weather, got to wear pretty thick clothing..and my best buy was a huge thick coat for 12SGD!! Happy anot? haha!

Well I admit it is a tad of a hassle tho to have cold weather cos its' so easy to get sick..I come out of the hotel everyday w sniffles and have to use loads of tissue..and when doing our daily work I think i got sick too cos coming in and out of the warm shops into the cold air kinda tested my body's resistance.

But I love the cold air! It really wakes u up and keeps u going. And not to say gives a good complexion too! :)

Anyway this post is posted from youtube, because loads of Korean MVs and songs were playing all over, and they really get stuck in ur head cos they are soo catchy! Sorry sorry is one of them. I like the girl version too! Will find more and post! :))

I miss Korea!!

Stifled.

After yet another hapless conversation with the mother (trying to explain my bf situation), which resulted in nothing again, and then early morning pressing by the dad who wants me to go for this walk-in job interview for this company dealing in retail and sales; I've come to realise that our lives are really not much more our own than our parents', who can lay claim to it anytime since they pretty much brought us up this 20+ years.

And I really resent that. I know this is sounding really spoilt and all, like really ungrateful to all that they have put in to get me to where I am, but I'm really feeling so stifled and owned. I guess I should've done somethign to earn my own keep all these years, because maybe I deserve this situation I am in now. My life is pretty much my parents' to dictate. Especially now when I'm going to leave hall in a month's time, and the impending job-searching period is here, it's a really confusing and frustrating transition period. :(

I wish I was all alone in this and yet I don't want to be all alone in this. Yes I appreciate your help but help is okay and trying to stream me your way is not. Why am I 22 yet still have to conform to your decisions? Will I have to do this til I'm finally married? THen my body belongs to someone else, even if I finally have the rights to my own decisions.

Sometimes the rebel in me really wants to take flight and leave. Stop protecting me from the mess u THINK i will get into, the difficulties u THINK i will face. okay i WANT to face this and i chose this path so i already know the difficulties that are coming and am willing to face it! Doesn't make it any easier but at least i'm prepared. How can I give it up just cos I know it is tough?

omg i feel like such a Singaporean kid. Singaporean because that's what we are. Sheltered, Protected, and unwilling to face difficulties...

HOME!

Hey world! I'm back in Singapore! And life's been great, except that my heart's still left in VA.

Well so I flew over from SF alone to Taiwan, and met Angels along the way. The Filipino Cabbie in SF, and the Limousine driver in Taiwan.

Well basically I was stranded, and honestly I kinda felt abit lonely and lost, because on the plane I was really getting excited to meet peeps from back home! Anyways, I met really nice people at the limousine service at the airport, and basically this lady and fatherly figure helped me dial the numbers of more than 8 hotels, so I could follow my backup plan to book the cheapest hotel for myself.

And then when I managed to contact the rest, the Uncle actually took me for a cheaper price in his car and then brought me around abit, treated me Taiwan's famous bitter tea, and really took care of me! I've never experienced such generosity and warmth from a stranger, and it was pretty overwhelming..

Anyways. So I'm back here, and we had an S41 outing on saturday, which was awesome!! Almost 15 of us turned up again, the usual number, and really caught up after 3whole months! Even Yeanching the lost girl came! Didn't see her for nearly a year! It was amazing. These peeps really made me miss home.

Met up w Xiaowei too! I missed her loads! She's hilarious as usual, and grown up in many ways now after Shanghai.. Some ways I wish she wouldn't have gone thru. But still, we've both improved in our own ways after travelling.. She from the East, and Me from the West. So it was the East meet West actually! :) Realise the world is really small afterall. And the world has flipped. The people I met were more conservative than the people she met in China! It's become the opposite now, it's ironic, and a little frightening. I'm glad I went to the West though. Really glad.

Well coming back to hall, I feel a little cut off from the rest cause of missing FWOC and all the orientation thingys. Hopefully I'll catch up soon! Plus it's IBG season meaning I gotta get my stamina gearing up again! Bleahs. Have to start exercising soon!! haha cannot slack Year 4 cannot slack!!!

OKay. Next up be prepared for a whole chunk of pics from everything in USA K!! cos Now finally uploaded my stuff now that i'm back :DD

Safe in San Francisco!

And so I'm here in SF now. I love this place! Miracles have been happening to me such that I got here safely, got a fantastic place to live in, met two other Singaporeans and travelled abit to my fav places here, and am having a ball of a time!

Gonna shop abit at Union sq now before I hit e airport! WOOHOOOO!! Taiwan tonight I come!

Roadtrip!

Alrightey! SO sorry for that long wait for a post..internet at the dorm really sucked the past weeks and then so many things happened before I really had time to put them down in words.

Well so anyways I'm here in Miami now with Larry, and it's been a hellava happening time so far. We started our roadtrip three days after I ended work on 26th July SUnday, after we were done with my termination stuffs, visiting the park for the last few times for me, searching for good internet down at VCU and finally settling down in "THE CAMEL" (which was a liveband pub, damn cool), visiting BMW for his new car stuffs, and also after getting a new kayak and racks for the car so we could secure the two boats on top of his BMW..whew.

And so Wednesday, we hit James River in Richmond after finding our new Kayak, at about 5pm.. so we were happily kayaking down the peaceful stream where there were tons of fat ducks leaving their doodoos around the rocks.. and then we reached the really fast part where the stream started to really have mini waterfalls and current was stronger and there was a bit of whitewater.. and then stupid me decided to take the risk (cos we were barely down the river) and go down those waves cos it looked like fun and i had faith in my rowing abilities to come back upstream..

ah. stupid move. Because my faith was nothing compared to inexperience. Shouldn't have ventured the deep waters because although we saw prettier sights and we were having fun and all, getting back upstream was no joke..I really had no strength to push back up the current and the water was flowing fast and pushing my boat down the bigger waterfalls, and it's no joke cos the falls can juz sink u under and snap ur ribs in half! Plus the huge rocks up and under the river made it tedious cos I kept getting stuck on top of rocks or between them and it just wasted my energy even more.

So Larry was trying another route back up while avoiding the rocks, but water was flowing really fast..and his boat capsized..the older, better boat. WITH MY BAG IN IT! And more than 200USD of cash (because he just banked out some for me) with my cards- ID, intl phonecard, Bank of Am card, Matric card, EZlink(at least 5bucks) and neoprints and more impt stuffs. Worse of all, my camera, and shades and some other stuffs..DAMN SAD!!! I'm still so gek at myself for being an idiot to bring my wallet and camera in e first place.

Sighs. And then we tried to look for it til dusk, and when we gave up it was really almost pitch black. Like. Dark dark. we were guided by the moonlight back to the car, but because we were downstream, we got lost and we had to carry the kayak back and go through another route which had us climbing up and down over gigantic rocks. WHICH SUCKED cos larry had no sandals on (went down the river) and it was F-ing heavy and we still had to balance on rocks to get to the stairway that was in e forest trail to get back to the car.

Some adventure huh. What a first day for our roadtrip! :((

Well that was a huge part of the trip cos we lost lots of money plus the boat which added up to almost 1000USD of assets. :( But I guess God was with us along the way cos at least both of us were okay, pretty much, and I realised i had my camera card switched cos my 8gb was full and i put in a 516mb card which had pics i didn't want already. How Blessed, right? Cos I haven't downloaded ANY of my few thousands of pics so far.. damn heng it's still w me! And my make up I removed from my bag and put in my luggage, so I lost pretty much just cash and camera..which is sad, but still, replaceable.

Ma didnt' give me a hard time about it too. she was so sweet and was like, at least both of us are fine, right? I love u mummy! So happy. :))

And then because of the sunken boat we had to divert our route and we went down to Larry's apartment in Greenville, North Carolina and spent the night on the couches cos his friends were staying in it. That night was simple and awesome. Cos near past midnight the boys were jamming on the keyboard and bass, and it is just pure, unadulterated music, and it was just pleasure watching them jam. They're all from Church and it's like they're all so talented, u know. Larry's best friend D- Demetris, can sing so well toO! and his cousin rocked on the keyboard. And Larry was on the keys and was trying to hit high notes which was so so cute. bwhaaha. Like. airy baby voice. Wish I had my cam to record it.

We were spose to hit Virginia Beach that night. Can u imagine I've been here in VA for 3months but i havent' seen VBeach at all? Damn gek right. But we went down to Myrtle beach though. Spent like 1 night there in a pretty good hotel and then the next night, Friday, we drove down 10hours to hit Miami Beach! Damn shagged for him.

Well we spent a huge part of friday spending time away at this pretty place in Myrtle beach, like a boardwalk with shops and a themepark.. there were lots of ducks and hugeass fish which u could feed with fishfood if u pop quarters in a box every few metres on the wooden handrails.. and then we caught Funny People at about 1130pm so we could spend more time and then hit the road at 12am or so so we could reach Miami in the day on Saturday. I slept half the movie away though. So don't ask me what happened. haha.

okay imma stop here cos it's abit too long and i'm getting a neckache typing on my pillow. bye! update the rest of the 5 days after again soon! :))

I want to be an American!

THis two nights have been amazing. I've seen more about life here in America more than the past month, and really felt the warmth of really really nice Americans!

NYC and WAshington I promise I will blog ab0ut soon; there was simply too much to write to get started. *hehx*

ANyway, last night, Larry took me and two cl0se Columbians and a Mesadonian friend down to the VCU campus, and we just played street A.Football in the middle of campus! They basically simplified it to like touching instead of tackling, and it was really really awesome because I was the only girl there and they were huge guys and they were really so nice to include me, throwing the ball at me to catch and like watching out in case they bowl me over..

And A.Football is really fun!! Something like touch except without the backing. We ran about to and fro and really had a good workout..Basically each team has four tries to get the ball to the touchline, and we stand in two rows facing each other, with one of us throwing the ball for all the rest to catch when we run at "Hut!"

Had a ball of a time really, and I found out later Larry only knew like two of the other six or so guys. Boys really make friends easily! And this is their usually hobby; just like how XM and the boys played BBall n street soccer back home..

THen tonight, 16 of us SIngaporeans went to this really friendly American lady's house. SHe's really awesome to have invited us! And we hardly knew her at all except from seeing her at the park; And it was just the lifeguards who knew her first. But anyways, the plan was that she come down to the dorm at about 2pm, and take us to Blue Ridge Mountains. But somehow we went to some Botanical Gardens-like children farm cos she was ill..

THen we headed down to a real house which had a farm; it was her neighbour actually. It was really amazing how the kids from the house ran barefooted around the barns and cornfields showing us the animals; like a baby kitten Juicy, and the horses--ANapony and starlight or something.. and the two beautiful golden retrievers.. and the house had woods and they play in it like hiding Easter eggs during Easter for a hunt, and shooting flying discs with shotguns. It really is the kind of life I wish I grew up in! ANd the House was really really beautiful and big and classic; the kind which had fireplaces and a cookout place and treeswings and a pretty wooden castle for the kids to play with..It was such an ideal country lifestyle!

Then we went over to Rachell's house to make dinner about 5-6pm..her house is damn pretty too!! Three dogs, including her pomeranian Buffy, and a fireplace and a classic piano; and her children are all so talented!! She has four, and three of them hung out with us the whole day..the oldest son (who wasn't there) is an artist/painter gg to take art in VCU, the second son can write music and take pictures, the daughter can make dresses (and I mean the ball gown Victorian or LOTR standard dresses!!) and the youngest can basically do everything!

And they are all home schooled by Rachelle; something like what Emmie's family is doing..I think it's a Christian thing so parents can teach their kids the values they want, and the kids get alot of self-discipline! I really saw things in a different way; I guess it really isn't a bad thing when Emmie moved away and also homeschooled.. They really get a lot of time to develop other hobbies and talents, and character too..

So anyways we had a feast for dinner, us preparing tomato and minced beef and coke chicken, the NTU gang had their steamed egg and spicy cabbage/brocoli, and Rachelle made pasta of two kinds and dessert, which was a chocolate cake and breadpudding and rice pudding and our bought lemon meringue. Super full! And everything was so good you just couldn't NOT have second helpings! :P

Her home was really filled with warmth and I chatted with the daughter and the second son, and learnt so much about their life! Really made me wish I was American. U really have all that land and space and the values to pass on to the next generation, and the kids I saw today were really the kind I love; hugs and kisses and thank yous and all warm and really super friendly! ANd all the people I meet so far have such strong National Spirit, and they really work so hard to earn their keep!

All the kids at the park are like juggling an average of two jobs including school, and mostly support themselves because they know their parents are earning to pay for alot of other things..
I really admire that fact and it's an AMerican thing because they leave their parents at 18 or so and become really independent! I really feel so ashamed that I'm so spoilt and I really really wish I was brought up that way. And of course really appreciate the parents. I just hope I'm not so spoilt I can't deal with hardship!

Shucks all this American influence has really got me intrigued. Twenty days or less here! I don't wanna go back! It's gonna be so hard because i'll have to tear myself away.. I don't know if this is a good thing or bad but exposing myself to this side of AMerica has made me really rethink my life steps. There is so much to work on internally, and time is really short for me because I'm 22 in a month! :(

OKay anyways I should stop here since it's 6am here and I have work at 330pm later. Adios!

Saturday's Fun day!

As promised, this entry will be about my off day on Saturday, and my first ever outing out of dorm grounds alone with an American! :)

The 4 of us!

Our pretty merry-go-round

Shockwave! Where u stand up throughout the rideHere's abit of the park from the Eiffel Tower. The orange stick is Drop tower! :)

In e morning I went to the park while YH went to work, together with some THais to play the park..Finally got to play the Dominator, which I'd promised Murat who works there, that I'd go visit.. It was awesome btw! It's a super tall ride, and really fun! I'd definitely go back. And I tried for the first time, the Drop tower too! It's like the highest thing in the park, and at first I thought, once u do that, u pretty much can do anything else. But surprisingly it really is nothing! Not much of the drop feeling, just a really cool rush of wind. I like!! :))

And the best part is this. SPongebob!

Bwhahaa oi mei u must show this to T.hui okay?

Anyway so at night as promised, my colleague Matt took me to HOoters. It was really nice! I like the whole American, one-floored, sign-filled walls with pictures and frames of the hooters girls.. The setting was really American!

It was really awesome, and we had hotwings and crablegs, which really rock! Damn shiok! Okay but it cost me 20bucks so it is abit ex. Cannot spend such money anymore because I've to save for the NY trip and prolly more after I end WAT! Here's how he looks like. Leornardo right! Anw we're just friends. :)

Okay, won't blog too much now. THere's been some stuff going on, but i'll leave those to private convos w sis. Sighs. Life. Anw I'm starting to miss peeps back home :( Justin, I don't want u to leave so soon!

Week 3 in KD!

So much happened this week! I decided I should stop procrastinating my blog cos there's so much to write, so I decided to write now since I woke up suddenly at 4am. haha. Anw this is gonna be another long entry! *grins* Hm. Lemme start off w some pictures..

HEre's how me n YH look on typical work days, early in the morning at about 9am.

Totally like nerdy school kids..

My red uniform is for rides and her checkered green is for F&B! We're both wearing shorts I think, but there's a pants version which I didn't get..Abit regret cos it's been awfully wet and cold these few days.. :S

Anyways, so the Thais left the early part of this week, most on Monday night, and it was a really sad parting..I went around getting all of their numbers and addresses and contacts, and taking pictures with everyone! It's been so nice having them around and we got pretty close, so most likely when I go to Bangkok I'll be visiting! Especially since two of the closest are from BK! I'm really happy about it cos now i'll have friends in BK who can take me around to e most authentic BK places! :DD

The Thais are really damn cute! THey are one of the most si wen yet noisy and party-loving people in the dorm, and they all have one syllable names which are totally different from their real names! So they have to leave them in brackets beside their real names for me to recognise. I can never remember!! Which I felt abit apologetic for. haha.

So that was Boy, *, Jeeze, Mai, Kwan(Pinky) & Ying (who's in my ride), Kel, *, Noom, and Beau(Bow) and Ging. Damn I should learn how to do a collage. ANd i swear i will find out the names of the *s soon. :S

And these two are Aof and Nat, who work at the lobby counter!

Most importantly this is Goi and Tong. They've been the closest I guess. Goi worked with me the first day I got here, and Tong, who's mostly friends with everyone and super super funny, spent lots of time chatting and laughing with me n YH.. He's a self-confessed confused. As in he doesn't know if he like phuu ying or phuu chay. haha okay decipher yourself. I'll miss them bad. Thank goodness they both stay in Bangkok!

And then Tuesday was Potomac Mills shopping day!! WOots! I was so happy I could go at e last minute cos Brittany, my colleague took over me for the day! Damn happy can. If i had to work then I would so totally be miserable. Anyway. I spent like 160USD on mostly American Eagle and a pair of $5 flipflops! HAppYY! I found perfect fits! :D Will take pics of my booty soon~

Anyway, Wednesday was work day again, and the night before, it stormed madly here in Doswell! It was a lightning storm; something we all never saw before. It was all cloudy and dark and flashes of lightning without rain, and us Singaporeans were so suaku we crowded around my window and took videos of it. haha! Like as if it's fireworks lidat. I will upload once it is edited.

Oh yes. And the dorm had a blackout! Apparently all of Doswell did cos the lightning hit the main transformer somewhere in the city, so very jialat. WE lost power at about 12am, and were stuck in the dark and without hotwater til 3am. So we ended up chilling around the dorm! :D Here's a pic of people outside my corridor! Some of e angmohs did a rain dance and pulled me in. Damn crazy! :D

My two Chio and wifey roommates! I swear if I was a guy I'll marry girls like them. They cook, clean, are pretty and smart, and damn good company! :D

Some of the Ukrainian girls in the corridor

I took this pic from my door! Anw Murat is the guy on the far right, a Mesadonian, and was pretty chumchum w me but now he like fa pi qi sometimes so now i'm like not talking much to him. But he's pretty cute. :)

Us in the corridor! :)
YH!! HAHAHA just had to put this up.
Me and Jade! My namesake!! Die lah both chinese n english namesakes are guys. :S Anw he's one of the few remaining Thai's staying til June! :)

We decided to go out and enjoy e cool night air and watch the lightning!
And take some cheesy poses.. The raindance group,made of columbians and a Brit and the Ukrainians.. :)

OKay so this was pretty much the first half of this week. But I got a few more things to update, and I'm dying to tell sis but she must come back from Taiwan first!! Arghh eh read alr quick call me or msn k. Dilema sia. I'm not gg to blog cos it's abit private. Alrightey!

Oh yes! so it's Saturday 6am now, and it's my off day!! YAYNESS! I'm pretty much gonna slack awaay the time, go swimming in e morn w YH til she works in e pm and then maybe go play in e park abit. But at night, I've got a date with my colleague! He's like been here 4 years or so, so i thought he was like 23 or smth but I just found out yest he was 19!! Walau. He really look damn old can. Anway he said he'll take me to HOoters which is down the road to have hotwings cos we were both hungry on one closing evening and the convo just started..haha yay!! It's gonna be my first trip outta the dorm with an American to see something in Doswell for real!

Okay ma if u are reading this don't worry la he is really damn nice and like normal. Not the pyscho will take me out in the car and do things after dinner one. don't worry don't worry okay. I post a pic of him soon to show u how he look like. HE's the Leonardo Dicaprio who I mentioned in my previous entry. :D

Yay can't wait! Will update again soon in a week or so! :P