Procs suck.

Inertia won again. hmphs. I really really deserve to be shot. And even then i think the bullet will bounce off my fats. Hmphs. :S

Xiaowei I miss you my running buddy cum talk dirty neighbour.... sighs. I'm so bored. I really really am. Just not joining enough or something, and growing fat and lazy.. I'm all talk and no walk man. C'mon! GRoove up the spirit, babe!! Tie up those shoes and hit the road!! Grr I'm so pissed with my procrastination. If this goes on i'm gonna remain single til i'm 50 man. haha!

Anyways. I think right now i'm in a very stagnant position..just waiting for NOC results to hit me.. quickquickquickquickquick!!! I really can't wait for it to be out. At least let me know so I can move on to the next step!! I'm already one muscle beat away from clicking the WAT application submission, and all heart in in preparation for C-ommand with this batch of seniors!!

NOC faster gimme a confirmation so I don't pace around so much in my mind... :( If I really do get it it'll be a world of changes for me to embrace! I'm half prepared to give a year of my life to Upenn, but I'm really scared at the thought of it too.. I'm so super slack now, if i get it, it means I have to go all out and actively seek continuous improvements and be on the ball all e time, instead of gg for my holiday at WAT... sighss.. decisions decisions decisions.

Okay enough of procrastinating!! Work starts tomorrow!!! hm. lol.

Lucky

Songs like this just make me wanna be in love.

C-teped down!

We've officially stepped down! As blockcomm 0708, Cest la vie.. I didn't cry! I didn't shed a single tear, til i really came back to my room actually.

I have no idea why..I just felt this intense wave of emotions; something like loss, and emptiness and relief; a tad of regret, a slosh of reluctance, some uncertainty as how i'd live the rest of this entire term, and a tinge of envy and anticipation for what's going to come under the new block comm.. It's really a strong strong team! And I am really tingling with excitement for what they can bring..It's been a long time I think, when we could laugh together on rooftop sessions--those days when lionel and tat were around..and then then those times we just gossiped in random rooms.. and it's been long since i felt free and responsible-less, and not always having to be on the watch for stragglers to pull them back into the fun all the time so no one is left out. I know this batch will bring it back. I just know it at heart! And it's final year now, even if they don't, i'm excited cos I know it's a fresh new start and things will rev up all over again, just like the current ibg where Cblock always rocks the courts with our cheering..

But but. I know for the next three weeks at least, it'll feel like i just broke up, all over again. This time, with the bunch of people i think I got closer to mostly near the end of our reign..I'll have the withdrawal symptoms..it's already starting! I kinda don't wanna lose the term "block comm".. and it's just an auto-reaction to that term for one year now, and i just have to remind myself i'm not blk comm anymore!! *sobs* I don't have to jio ppl whenever there's smth on now, and i can start losing the tendency to look out for the cblkers's welfare..it's just hard to get used to!!

I guess, even though there were countless imperfections in our performance, I really do hope we did enough; every day with crossed fingers I perform our tasks, and I really wanted it be the best we could be! But no matter what it was just different from C-rew and I was kinda sad about it at first. BUt i know now what we did in that one year can't be erased nor redone, and at least we left a momento for the block in a portrait in the lounge, and I am really proud that the new senior block comms totally trash me and josh like mad..super zai people! I really can't wait i really can't wait.

Tonight marks a new beginning for Cblock, and even though I don't play a major role in it, I'm glad I'll be a part of this year; I can't imagine missing it for the world!

Sometimes I really hate your stupid brazeness, your darn vulgarities and that hideous name-calling. I thought I could take it but it really has started to irk; not a good feeling. Who gives a damn if u're new? Thought I'd be nice but apparently niceness does not reflect all the time.

Urgh, bad week; I needa find a mountaintop to scream. A pillow to punch. A snuggle buddy. :(

I'm 21!

Last night, was just. disturbing.

Lol apart from the surprise of course, which was super sweet and unexpected. I got a coupla pleasant surprises so far..Firstly there was Xiaowei's call, all the way from Shanghai, which i'm super thankful for. Miss that girl to bits.

And Brian Chen Jianwen actually wished me! *raves* haha okay not that it's anything big, but I'm just glad he noticed. :)

Anyways, it feels weird doing my 21st here alone..(meaning without sis). Not that we really celebrate together every yr anyways..but this year feels different. its just that in a mere span of 24 hrs it suddenly marks my 21st year on this Earth, and I'm surrounded by so many wellwishes and people who love me, but yet somehow, I feel a tad alone; the sudden feeling of how we go through this life with other people but one day they will leave us and ultimately we live our lives alone.. ? Hm. Wassup with all this emo talk man.

Maybe it's just all the sabo-ing last night. I woke up this morning feeling nauseus from the thought of it. okay lah. i know i'm supp to be used to this kinda jokes--two years and going in hall already.. but really hope my trauma didn't spread on to the freshie girls man. it was a little more extreme last night. Maybe cos it's 21st har. oh wells. I hope i'm open-minded enough. :)
Tonight I'll be supporting xm in his speech for the 22nd MC, and sometimes i ask myself wassup with the "trying to catch up on his life" gestures man? I think i'm just a sentimental person. No more feelings; just being sentimental i guess.

Alrights, I'm officially Twenty-one!! Like woots! Please don't let my hormones start going downhill from here, God! Anyways, to everyone who remembered (or did not), I really appreciate it loads and I'm super blessed to have you in my life! :)

Penning off, tyu~

I MISS S41!!

Browsing thru Shar's pics now, and BSB's As long as u love me's on e radio..I suddenly miss S41 like mad!!

Where's Daryl now..prob super hyper in NTU's camp and hall stuffs..and Shar, I haven't seen even tho we're in e same fac! Ber, where are u since BEijing??? Baowei and Justin, I wish I had time to catch up on Rag day..super huge surge of wanting to see you guys! Wk Bobs Roy, Sean.. ROY!! supposed to be in KR now but dunno where the heck u are.. sighs.

S41 i wanna meet up!!! :{

This star shines strong and free

Have you seen a star,

One that guides you no matter where you are?

However vast the sky may be

Or dark it seems

You can be sure, it's always there for you and me

Have you heard a song,

One that moved you, one that made you sing along?

Your dreams and hopes will all come true

If you believe that every vision begins with you.

* Shine for Singapore

This is your song

Deep inside your heart where it belongs

It'll always stay, strive for your goals.

You will achieve with visions so bold.

# Shine for Singapore

This is our song

Reach out for the sky, far and beyond

As one we'll stand, we're Singapore

It's here that we belong

Have you heard a song,

One that moved you, one that made you sing along?

Your dreams and hopes will all come true

If you believe that every vision begins with you.

Nowhere I'd rather be, this is home to me

This star shines strong and free

Happy National Day everyone! Now i have two songs stuck in my head. One is this year's Nat'l day song by Hady Mirza, and our Rag dance song with its digdigdig, jiggly room and In harmony combi! It's been a good 080808~ :D

To sis

Oh crabs. Just came back from flag day!! Wahhh just now was super shagged. Managed to fill my two tins tho!! YAyNess! for the fact that it's prob gg to be my last flag day! I don't need to do such saikang anymore!! whahaha..

okayokay. I'm not supp to shout that out loud. anw speaking of shouting, everyone's pretty sore-throated now, one week and abit into the camp..Yours truly here suffering from several ulcers under the tongue and even in the throat (I never got one there before!! Hurts like siao.)! Ok la, shan't complain alr.. hehehe.

Btw sis flew off yesterday morning 6am, and I managed to slip her the song I wrote supposedly for our bday for her. Well, the lyrics at least..no tune there yet. hehe. okay I shall work on it nevertheless! She was pretty scared to fly off, and i think i understand, despite me insisting that I'd just be happy to be in her place to fly off right now..Ok I'm half-lying la.

But I really hope u have a really good time there okay, think like an angmoh when u're in USA! Big tiddy cowgirls!! I already wrote a death note to Waikit already so I think they will feel responsible for you la don't worry kay. :P

Ae if u read this tag me okay. U nv reply my sms so i dunno if u got it yet and I haven't been home in ages and ma never say anything abt u. yups 12 hrs apart, so weird..prob wun catch u online..and i won't anyway cos my stupid msn buang. yea tag me here k u. :)

Wow. And so the birthday passed, and I haven't uploaded the pictures still! Really busy with FWOC now, all the orientation stuff making me so disoriented.. Crave my sleep-as-and-when-I-want days badly..feel as if I haven't had much of those precious days much in this summer break. Btw Xiaowei left a coupla days ago, and I didn't get to send her, and Sis is leaving for texas tonight, and I haven't been around her much this week. Feeling super lost and a tad weary, and abit regretful I had to commit to so much hall stuff. :(

FWOC's been intense so far, and I got back the ugly tan I took so long to get rid of. :( But this year's freshies are a sporting bunch, quite a few potential sportsmen and dancers and singers.. Can totally tell through the dating game(my first in KR), which is so crazy this year! Three to four freshies after one senior, and every mealtime never fails to entertain the crowd with some proposal or onstage performance. super shiong! But then quite fun nevertheless. C BLock got the hottest seniors! Like more then ten of us "in pursuit" and "hooked" already.. Hm. Maybe this'll be my first and last game, so I hope it'll be memorable..in the good way.. My date transformed into a she-man yesterday at Project Runaway. Hmmm.. :P

Anyways, I guess I should put up a few of those pretty pics taken at the party, and update abit! So much's been going on..Block comm went back to deco the block lounge, lift and rooftop too, and now we've got the PRETTIEST LOUNGE & ROOFTOP in KR!! hahahahaha. super happy. Here goes...

So here's the people who helped..

The lounge before painting, and firstly, we painted the lounge blue eyes blue..

We sprayed the fans and then had some fun with "traffic light lollipops"..

Recreated the WELCOME sign and wrapped the tables blue while the paint dried..

Then day two was the drawing and painting of the seabed..
And TADAHH!!! The final portrait! A pretty ocean to depict us fishies in the C-ea block!! :D

Okay, gonna spend some precious time with the family now; everyone has arrived for the usual sunday dinner. Ciao~ :D

Wishlist!!

Okay, the party is in less than a week, and I've finally come up with a wishlist! Abit late i know, but some people have been asking...Racked my brains and came up with a short list of what i really really want for the moment..if u can't get a gift it's okay, the real day's more than a month away; I accept belated gifts! :P Anyway, here goes.

Wish #1
This one I think i need, with the increasing tendencies to have shoe fetish every once in a while..found the places to get it! Details here: www.whoa-ho.com/shoewheel.html :)

Wish #2

A musical scroll thingy which plays "Rubber Duckie" when knob is turned manually. Found at InQbox (one at Suntec near gelare i think), wanted: in gold and in plastic box!

Quite cheap, esp if shared!

Wish #3

Jean Yip voucher for slimming? LOl. I also accept vouchers from Zara, and Accessorize, pretty sundresses would be nice..and..can't really think of anything I want else.

Hm not much I need now, your presence will be the best gift! If u really run out of ideas, come with a handful of hugeass balloons and i'll be more than thrilled too! No boys wrapped in paper or boxed up please, still R21 as for now. :P

Yups thats it, seeya at the partY!

P.S pls tell me if u're intending to get the above, needa update or else i'll get a few of each item! thanks~ :)