C-teped down!

We've officially stepped down! As blockcomm 0708, Cest la vie.. I didn't cry! I didn't shed a single tear, til i really came back to my room actually.

I have no idea why..I just felt this intense wave of emotions; something like loss, and emptiness and relief; a tad of regret, a slosh of reluctance, some uncertainty as how i'd live the rest of this entire term, and a tinge of envy and anticipation for what's going to come under the new block comm.. It's really a strong strong team! And I am really tingling with excitement for what they can bring..It's been a long time I think, when we could laugh together on rooftop sessions--those days when lionel and tat were around..and then then those times we just gossiped in random rooms.. and it's been long since i felt free and responsible-less, and not always having to be on the watch for stragglers to pull them back into the fun all the time so no one is left out. I know this batch will bring it back. I just know it at heart! And it's final year now, even if they don't, i'm excited cos I know it's a fresh new start and things will rev up all over again, just like the current ibg where Cblock always rocks the courts with our cheering..

But but. I know for the next three weeks at least, it'll feel like i just broke up, all over again. This time, with the bunch of people i think I got closer to mostly near the end of our reign..I'll have the withdrawal symptoms..it's already starting! I kinda don't wanna lose the term "block comm".. and it's just an auto-reaction to that term for one year now, and i just have to remind myself i'm not blk comm anymore!! *sobs* I don't have to jio ppl whenever there's smth on now, and i can start losing the tendency to look out for the cblkers's welfare..it's just hard to get used to!!

I guess, even though there were countless imperfections in our performance, I really do hope we did enough; every day with crossed fingers I perform our tasks, and I really wanted it be the best we could be! But no matter what it was just different from C-rew and I was kinda sad about it at first. BUt i know now what we did in that one year can't be erased nor redone, and at least we left a momento for the block in a portrait in the lounge, and I am really proud that the new senior block comms totally trash me and josh like mad..super zai people! I really can't wait i really can't wait.

Tonight marks a new beginning for Cblock, and even though I don't play a major role in it, I'm glad I'll be a part of this year; I can't imagine missing it for the world!