The Stars'll Change..

Listening to Mich's blog's Alvin & e Chipmunks number now, and feeling a rush of positiveness and that maybe yes, i might've just been having a coupla bad days..I'll make a comeback this year 2008! it's only Jan, it's not too late to revive myself! Who says new years start positive all e time?

Honestly I haven't been any positive past these few weeks, I tried; went out and hung out and tried to smile and distract myself, even retail therapy doesn't work! :( awful sad. And that means its pretty bad. But I don't know the reason behind it and I just can't let myself keep rolling downhill!

Was talking to sis about plans for our 21st bday last night, and was feeling pretty hyped up and excited about the whole thing! Really, i think its fab we finally get to celebrate our birthdays like, officially together, finally! haha and it'll be our FIRST party! We've never had parties before, and we always wanted it so bad. We were thinking who we should invite, and well, it added up to almost a hundred and I was thinking we had to eliminate some groups of people, but heck, now that i've typed it out here, I can't eliminate anyone since if u read I must invite you, so if u're invited, u better come, or "i kill u!" haha.

Been catching Coffee Prince on Uchannel, and it's really so funny! I always wished i had such an animated character. It seems like Life always brings more adventures to those abundant with smiles and bounce, and that little slice of me tends, more often than not, to hide behind the bigger roles of practicality and propriety. Pretty irksome. I must resolute this year, to ignore those two Ps and give in to Boldness!

Hoping I can get thru to SEP; it's about almost everything I looked forward to in Uni! If the Big Man up there grants my prayer, my stars'll change this yr. If not, I'll have to change my stars myself! And so many things are gonna happen, that it's hard to imagine how it's gonna be.. Well, we shall just wait and see, shan't we?


Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong

Somewhere between Hello & Goodbye

Cheers to the New Year!!

My house's full with the whole family again..super noisy and the kids just keep messing the place about. I swear i've had enough of brats..why can't they stay babies forever? haha alrights. i shan't rant on the first day of 2008.
The family came for DIY pohpiahs and mahjong! Pretty scrumptious, those handwraps, and super fun to make! What better to start the year than with home-made food yah? heh shoulda have it with some beer. :D

Hm. okay, time for some DISresolutions-- To sleep as long as I like, to leave my things all over the place, and to think negative thoughts of others by first impression.

I guess Lazy's been a close friend for the large part of the end of year 2007. Partly cos it's the first hols so far that i've really been at home, and I'm just absorbing the full luxury of sleeping in in my own bed, aircon and all. So much so, I admit I've kinda become a bit of a slob. BUTBUT. This will all change when I get my wheels moving again. Going back to hall will be like Rehab from TV-and-Sleep-overdose!

I got a new template(a new year deserves a change of skin, yay!), and it's emblemed with words i should follow in the year to come--to let go, and listen to my heart. Still half done, cos i needa find out how to add in the links and kinks, so it shall do for now..

I hope everyone had a good start to Year O'Eight, and here's a toast to Year O'Seven, which has been wild--May there be new possibilities and promises come the Year of the Ox!

Christmas w the Heroes!

Okay. It is officially Christmas eve, and less than three hours away from Christmas itself. And i'm home alone w bro watching tv. Sighs. not much compared to the past five Christmases where I always had a whale of a time.. But still, I guess we can't always have eventful Christmases, can we?

This year i didnt' buy much presents nor stroll down Orchard Road viewing the fairy lights, just spent the past two days watching Heroes on my lappie..not much of a Christmas, eh? But i admit i have been feeling a little desire to be a recluse lately, so invites to kbox and a movie were rejected recently too, I'm sorry--u guys know who u are.. *sheepish smile*

Still, there's 6 days more to the end of the year!! Still a cause to celebrate, an excuse to invite old friends and a reason to party the last of Year 2007 away! I'm pretty free til next year--*beams*

Anyone needs company?

i don't know why i love this game so much, we just rawk!!

Fairy thoughts~

wow. it's been a hectic week. a pretty hilly one, actually, with the deep valleys and all. sighs. I guess, the year's pretty much been so too..so many ups and downs.

the fact that it's already the last twenty days of the year suddenly dawned(or rained) on me like a December shower today..Year 2007 is almost past and here comes 2008! This year was lucky, and i guess, was pretty happening and exciting, as i had anticipated it to be last December, embracing the year that comes with the lucky number 7~ well 8's gonna be better and larger than life! I just know it.

2007 brought me out of my shell and i experienced so much and learned to accept and appreciate too many things that i had taken for granted previously.. ...hm oh no. im in a reflective mood today..haha. wells. anyway..this week probably was a kinda summary of it all..

Started out with my new love for touch(our first touch prac and it was at Siloso!(: ), and Piano, and then in the early part of the week i met up with an old love which sparked feelings i thought had long been buried deep and masking-taped in a box in a dark corner of my heart--that was kinda the peak--and then that night itself, my pretty smiling snowman on the top of the mt crumbled and caused an avalanche..i cried tears i never knew i had. maybe in so many ways there has been scars..i thought i'd covered it well in the past 6months, even i forgot about it..

But it hurts. still. i think i will never recover from it--it'll prob be there to judge the next love; there as a proof of the strength i've gained from the pain, an unbreakable, invisible case around my heart. I'll leave the pain aside til next year tho. i don't wanna deal w it right now. Just wait til it comes..

The day after, though, the Big Man above gifted me Angels..I've been shown so many times this year that there are people behind me.. and strongly on my side, too. Pretty lost for words. So, so thankful for that..i guess my lucky star's never really gone away, just stopped shining for abit. The happiness and gratitude just spilled out though i couldn't really tell anyone fully in laughter nor smiles..Thank you. Whoever was there. Three major times this year, too. during FWOC, and block comm, and this.

Then yesterday i was reminded that my Mom was really, i mean really. the most open-hearted and accepting Mom anyone could really have, and my dad too, of course. Kinda made me guilty for all the times i took, and will take them for granted, and i felt, i must've done something right my past life to live the one i live now.

Anyways, 2007's brought to me at least three new groups of people, and i'm amazed that these weren't just the usual acquaintances--the hi-bye kinda friends.. They're people i've lived with, people i've gone through happiness, and some sorrow with, and people i've come to love. And most of all, 2007's also brought me closer to the groups of friends i already had--to really cherish the friendships that have been forged through time.. they say the new one's silver and the old ones' gold, innit? (: That gold's very much treasured.

Well, i'd say it's been a lovely year, folks! I've grown and loved as a person, and am very much (as nostalgic as it is to say this), a full-fledged Twenty-year old! The past two decades has been well-lived i should say, and Next year will start a whole decade when i hit the freedom digits!

WHoo. So much to embrace. ok. shall end this reflection here for now~ may this year's X'mas bring a gorgeous closure to wrap up this year in a pretty package!

omg. my world is shattered. the pain i never knew i had in me just keeps pounding like waves over and over i just can't swallow..shit. this hurts like shit wth. wthwthwth. i can't believe this! just tell me why! f bastd. shit am i e only one to handle it on my own!! omg i can't scream shit but i feel like letting it out..shit. the pictures hurt more than i thought it would. *screams* kill me me now.

Zouked out!

hm. oKay. my first monday of the holidays..what have i been doing.. woke at 230, watched tv til 6pm, hit the piano and got chopin in my blood, more tv, surfed facebook, and fell asleep on my lappie, more surfing, and now its midnight!

oh man this rocks. hahaha..ok but this cannot go on. touch starts tomo at 830!! yay i can't wait actually..tho i know i'll have prob waking up and rushing back to hall..and i don't have my sports shoes yet! which sucks. i'm so gonna hit queensway soon i swear.

oh yes. and we have officially ZOuKed OUt! yesterday night. or morning. or somewhere in between. Was really fun, but super shagged at e same time. both ed n daryl zonked out, and pretty much wasted the ticket, but we had fun playing games at e carpark still, and a little more, dancing on the beach after.. no foam, i have no idea why, cos i heard there usually is--maybe we missed it? i don't know. but gd thing too, woulda made the night a little more dangerous and messier than it already was..

we had good music tho, and even better company, and coupla solid drinks, that got us high enough to dance and make merry, but not too overboard.. Me n SHar broke our slippers at the same time, just before we managed to enter zoukout! sucky, really. walked back barefoot..(sobs my two-day-old slippers!) i wish i used my $5 dollar ones.

Oh, and the night before, the class had a stayover at Sentosa Beach Resort, which was of course, full of fun! there was the usual cam-whoring, cards, tiny majong--courtesy of daryl, and guitar-playing--i learnt a few keys! (:, HBO, and of course, the drinking games, which was Soooo funny. ed sucks at the games lahh ahha or maybe he's just too good to bully. pictures up on facebook @ http://smusg.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14220&id=506382886&page=3! i wish my cam was in a better state cos now i don't have pics of my own.. :(

Anyhoo, all in all its been a fab two days over the weekend, and there's gonna be lots more to come this season! Maybe God let Hongleong finance miss me cos he's got a higher calling for me. haha like, fun! I'm gonna have this really cool party with the Odiners, and the SMRT prez is gonna have a really gd one too w dad so me n sis prob gonna tag along for a snippet of some of the goodies she usually caters. hahaa whee. and i'm meeting mao this wed. hope that turns out fine..he's just practical as usual, and i find now that i really am over him.

thank goodness xmas fills my heart with so many others to love, and no matter what happens, i think my christmas this year's gonna be colourful.

No white ones for me thankew, mine's multi-coloured. :D

yay 6th dec is here!

whoopeedoodah!! it's over!! i can't believe i'm feeling so elated but i do! Realise i have been cooping myself in my room too much, last nite Riz came and told me he hadn't seen me for a long time..and boy did he lose weight! tsk. exams. anyway, yay!!! bogglific!! isketch!! my floor's been gg crazy with the games, and it was just torturing yesterday when me n cuz were e only ones with the last paper today.... wooooot! finally!!!

i really hope hope hope this time things go well..don't wanna think about it right now.. so many things to do right now! lots to settle, and lots to look forward to.. really gotta organise my time! too much to do and too little time..was shopping last wkend, soaking in the xmas spirit at Vivo..whoo!! i love love love xmas!! just looking at the fake snowflakes and fake christmas trees also makes me happy. hurhur.

okay, i must go celebrate now..make up for all that lost time when all the NTU and SMU ppl alr start playing.. and i got my chopin pieces!!brilliant~ :D

you know, i was thinking all those thoughts of having u for christmas..
then i thought how selfish i was
Christmas is for giving!
And i must have a heart big enough to let go.
So, have yourself a merry little christmas, no matter how far away u are,
I'll have my own little one here too~ :)

i can't believe i just did that.

shucks. i swear i'm mad i swear i'm mad! sis says i have a bit of priority problem. i think its huge!! I'm so gonna die if yall find out. shoot me. i hope everything works out...it better better be..lord God pls cast a miracle and let me be sane when i'm there..nono, not for my exams.