Fairy thoughts~

wow. it's been a hectic week. a pretty hilly one, actually, with the deep valleys and all. sighs. I guess, the year's pretty much been so too..so many ups and downs.

the fact that it's already the last twenty days of the year suddenly dawned(or rained) on me like a December shower today..Year 2007 is almost past and here comes 2008! This year was lucky, and i guess, was pretty happening and exciting, as i had anticipated it to be last December, embracing the year that comes with the lucky number 7~ well 8's gonna be better and larger than life! I just know it.

2007 brought me out of my shell and i experienced so much and learned to accept and appreciate too many things that i had taken for granted previously.. ...hm oh no. im in a reflective mood today..haha. wells. anyway..this week probably was a kinda summary of it all..

Started out with my new love for touch(our first touch prac and it was at Siloso!(: ), and Piano, and then in the early part of the week i met up with an old love which sparked feelings i thought had long been buried deep and masking-taped in a box in a dark corner of my heart--that was kinda the peak--and then that night itself, my pretty smiling snowman on the top of the mt crumbled and caused an avalanche..i cried tears i never knew i had. maybe in so many ways there has been scars..i thought i'd covered it well in the past 6months, even i forgot about it..

But it hurts. still. i think i will never recover from it--it'll prob be there to judge the next love; there as a proof of the strength i've gained from the pain, an unbreakable, invisible case around my heart. I'll leave the pain aside til next year tho. i don't wanna deal w it right now. Just wait til it comes..

The day after, though, the Big Man above gifted me Angels..I've been shown so many times this year that there are people behind me.. and strongly on my side, too. Pretty lost for words. So, so thankful for that..i guess my lucky star's never really gone away, just stopped shining for abit. The happiness and gratitude just spilled out though i couldn't really tell anyone fully in laughter nor smiles..Thank you. Whoever was there. Three major times this year, too. during FWOC, and block comm, and this.

Then yesterday i was reminded that my Mom was really, i mean really. the most open-hearted and accepting Mom anyone could really have, and my dad too, of course. Kinda made me guilty for all the times i took, and will take them for granted, and i felt, i must've done something right my past life to live the one i live now.

Anyways, 2007's brought to me at least three new groups of people, and i'm amazed that these weren't just the usual acquaintances--the hi-bye kinda friends.. They're people i've lived with, people i've gone through happiness, and some sorrow with, and people i've come to love. And most of all, 2007's also brought me closer to the groups of friends i already had--to really cherish the friendships that have been forged through time.. they say the new one's silver and the old ones' gold, innit? (: That gold's very much treasured.

Well, i'd say it's been a lovely year, folks! I've grown and loved as a person, and am very much (as nostalgic as it is to say this), a full-fledged Twenty-year old! The past two decades has been well-lived i should say, and Next year will start a whole decade when i hit the freedom digits!

WHoo. So much to embrace. ok. shall end this reflection here for now~ may this year's X'mas bring a gorgeous closure to wrap up this year in a pretty package!