Have u ever felt supremely bitchy in your life? Like when u're doing projects with your groupmates and they happen to be particularly slow one day and u start thinking "WTF is he/she thick or just plain stupid"; or when swear words swarm your head when u're rushing somewhere and some idiot is blocking the way; or when someone nearby is grinning like a fool because he/she is happy but because u're not u start thinking " WTH can he stop f***ing grinning like a nutcase, or u're gonna smash his teeth in"; and basically getting extremely cranky and fed up with the whole world?
I realise more often than not at least for these two weeks, the evil ty has been emerging alot; the redhot, sexy, proud but still supremely evil little devil Ty on the left, shooting down the pristinely white Ty angel on my right shoulder with a canon... so many times I've caught myself this week, shooting evil thoughts about the people around me.. I really really should curb these mean thoughts.. i mean, The thoughts maketh the person, right??
And the thing is, it is addictive, this evil-eye/mental arrows thing. It's like nicotine, at first it's not too bad but then it hooks onto the soul and then starts turning everything into ash. The evil thoughts just come automatically at every little thing now and soon i start finding I have to fight to see the bright side and to think the best of others.. Urgh. I'm just turning into a mean bean.
I'm getting disgusted with myself and that glass ball i'm trying to balance on a seesaw is gonna roll down one side and smash into smithereens very soon if i keep this up.
Maybe it's just these two days. Maybe it's just the lack of sleep and water and good food and mostly, home. Sometimes i feel like hibernating for a while at home. but then i'll find more reasons to complain. sheesh. dunno what i want. Maybe its just cos i'm not getting any replies from anything that's gonna get me overseas. And maybe it's the lack of solid plans that i've been groping for and trying to piece tog for the past months.
Maybe it's just me. I hope my Angel will be done with her holidays soon.
I realise more often than not at least for these two weeks, the evil ty has been emerging alot; the redhot, sexy, proud but still supremely evil little devil Ty on the left, shooting down the pristinely white Ty angel on my right shoulder with a canon... so many times I've caught myself this week, shooting evil thoughts about the people around me.. I really really should curb these mean thoughts.. i mean, The thoughts maketh the person, right??
And the thing is, it is addictive, this evil-eye/mental arrows thing. It's like nicotine, at first it's not too bad but then it hooks onto the soul and then starts turning everything into ash. The evil thoughts just come automatically at every little thing now and soon i start finding I have to fight to see the bright side and to think the best of others.. Urgh. I'm just turning into a mean bean.
I'm getting disgusted with myself and that glass ball i'm trying to balance on a seesaw is gonna roll down one side and smash into smithereens very soon if i keep this up.
Maybe it's just these two days. Maybe it's just the lack of sleep and water and good food and mostly, home. Sometimes i feel like hibernating for a while at home. but then i'll find more reasons to complain. sheesh. dunno what i want. Maybe its just cos i'm not getting any replies from anything that's gonna get me overseas. And maybe it's the lack of solid plans that i've been groping for and trying to piece tog for the past months.
Maybe it's just me. I hope my Angel will be done with her holidays soon.
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